Probably losing my lo

[SunnyDream]

Did want to to write here at first, but I really need to talk to someone except my family... Of course, my friends support me, but they can fully understand what I fell now. I have a great mix of emotions and can't even give them names... It is so hard journey for me it took me so many efforts and finally I got my bfp

Everything was against me: low amh, age, health issues, past ecti.opic and mc but in spite of all of this I got my long-awaited positive result! My doctor made a miracle for me and still doing! I will never forget what she had done to make my dream come true!

I was told that I have a small chance to carry a baby but still, it is a chance and I decided to try. I knew that it would be hard but didn't realize that it would be SO hard! My hcg wasn't high but within normal. To be sure in positive result we did hcg once again and I was devastated as it doesn't drow almost at all (126 at the beginning and 189 now). We are waiting for the scan and very afraid to get bad news(

Don't know how to stay positive and don't worry these days..

[leo1980]

Oh hun I am sorry to hear. Please hang in there. I know it’s hard...

[SunnyDream in reply to leo1980]

Thank you Leo, I hope it will work out. How are you? Where are you in your journey?

[Cinderella5]

Oh what a worry for you! Its so hard waiting on those results coming back, it just leaves you in constant fear and now more waiting for the scan! Big hugs, you've done all that you can.xx

[SunnyDream in reply to Cinderella5]

Thank you, hun. What about you? How are you doing?

[Cinderella5 in reply to SunnyDream]

Im ok thanks! We are hoping to do FET around mid June time, AF dependent of course! Ive been a bit fed up waiting to get started again, its been an age since we lost our little one, yet feels like yesterday sometimes! Bit nervous and excited at the same time I guess but and we get a holiday at the same time which Im looking forward to.xx

[SunnyDream in reply to Cinderella5]

Glad to hear about your future FET. I know that mixture of emotions) Are you having your FET in your hometown or abroad?

[Cinderella5 in reply to SunnyDream]

Yes mixed emotions, part of me is terrified but in some ways I need to get to the end of our journey as once we have used up our 5 DE embryos up we dont plan to do anymore treatment. We are having treatment abroad, Athens so we get a nice break whilst we are away.xx

[SunnyDream in reply to Cinderella5]

Oh, sorry, yeah. I remember you've already told me about Athens. If it is your last chance it MUST be and WILL be successful! My prayers for you!

xx

[Cinderella5 in reply to SunnyDream]

Thanks so much!xx

[SunnyDream]

My update after the scan. Unfortunately, it is not very good((. At the end of this week, we will repeat the scan and will see what to do next. More likely that I will go to the hospital for a week-2 so the doctors could examine me better and try to avoid mc. Again nervous. It is so unfair...