I’m so grateful for the fact we’ve had another positive test but my mind is telling me something has gone terribly wrong. Over the weekend I started having bad dreams (nightmares I guess) all surrounding loss and even me miscarrying again. I know in a way there to be expected after all we’ve been through but since then my anxiety has really taken hold.
Last year I knew my babies heart and stopped and I just feel like I know it’s going to be bad news again, I desperately hope I’m wrong and that our little one is in there growing strong. Again I know some of this way of thinking is down to self protection, not that you can ever protect of prepare yourself if the worst news does happen again.
I’ve spoke to the bereavement midwife who said I can be scanned at the earliest 6+3 so still a couple of weeks to go. My counsellor is currently on holiday so wondered if anyone had any coping strategies until I’m able to see them?
Attached is a test I took last night, I know I need to believe this is our time 🌈 I feel more disconnected this time than I did last year, I guess infertility and miscarriage will affect our lives forever, no matter where on this journey we are 🧡