It has been confirmed as a CHEMICAL pregnancy .... deep down i knew something wasnt quite right... i had very strong symptoms after my BFP like cramping sore and fuller boobs ... very sensative.... sence of smells improved ... felt a little nauseous at times and extremely tired ..... i felt these feelings fade after a few days and i knew in my heart it had failed..... the clinic has been amazing ive to stop my lubion injections and wait for a bleed.... if this hasnt happened within 5-10 days ive to go back for help... im glad i have my answers now ..... we are so lucky and blessed to be given this chance and we have 3 more embies in the freezer ❄️❄️❄️🥚🥚🥚........ thank you to each and every one of you that has shown me support .... been there when i couldnt even face looking at myself .... sent me good luck wishes and messaged me privately.... you ladies are fabulous 💖..... for now though i have a holiday booked we go away on monday to a little cottage in anglesey taking the furbabies 🐶🐶... im sooo looking forward to the nice beaches .... the big fat glasses of wine 🍷 and oneanothers company ..... ill be wishing my 30th in proud and stronger than ive ever been before ..... when im ready to go again the clinic have asked me to ring on day 1 of my cycle and we go from there .... the frozen cycle seems so more chilled out on your body ..... THANKYOU again to each and every one of you ❤️❤️x
**** UPDATE 💔😭 not good news im aff... - Fertility Network UK
**** UPDATE 💔😭 not good news im affraid ******
Ahhh Im really sorry it hasnt worked out Rachel although your positivity is amazing! Im glad that you have something nice to look forward to, have a wonderful time and hope you enjoy your birthday!xx
Thankyou ..... ive so lucky i have more chances it obviously wasnt ment to be this time .... i hope your ok and thankyou for the support and lovely words ❤️Xxx
I’m sorry to hear it hasn’t worked out but your positivity is so inspiring!! I have no doubt good things will happen for you. Enjoy your break and the booze!! Xxx
Break booze .... patte ... mayo 😍 the lot im having some benefits from this awfullness IVF is such a rewarding but cruel thing ... what will be will be ... ❤️ thankyou zoe Xxx
I’m so sorry hun.
I was hoping that it was going to be ok.
Have a lovely birthday 🎂
Xxxx
Thankyou so much ..... ill be ok we have to be.... i was so held up on it working ... ive had my hopes stampeded all over 💔 ..... i wont let it win 💖 thankyou for your support Xxx
Ahhh racheal sorry i just saw this... its so horrible isnt it.... but enjoy your hols.... try not to dwell on it as the future will be bright for you xxx
Thankyou so much lovely ... xxx ❤️
Absolutely gutted for you, but your attitude is amazing! As you said, it wasn’t meant to be this time - your body must not have been ready, but come the time for FET you will be both mentally & physically stronger!! 💪🏼👊🏼
Hope you have a lovely time away - the weather should be lovely for those beach walks with the 🐶🐶 xx
I'm so sorry to hear this Rachael 😔 I'm really heartbroken for you, its just not fair!! My clinic told me their frozen transfers have done better than their fresh, so keeping everything crossed for when you feel ready to go again.
I hope you have a nice time away 😘
Take care xxxx
Oh Hun I'm really sorry. Enjoy your holiday and have a fabulous 30th birthday 🎉 big hugs xxxx
So sorry to hear this. Its good you have 3 embies left and you're only young! All the best for the next one Xx
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Oh Rachel, I'm
Really sorry to read this. I had everything crossed for you xxx
I’m so sorry. It’s a horrible process to have to go through. And much of the time it’s the not knowing and being in limbo that’s the worst. I’ve been there many times. Big hugs and look after yourselves xx
I’m so sorry to read this but so impressed at how strong and positive you are already. Enjoy your birthday and good luck with your FET when you’re ready. X
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Thankyou so so much you lovely lot it really does mean alot .... i hope that each and every one of you are ok wishing you all lots off luck in your journeys wherever you may be .... i have myself a good un and im so blessed already xx
So sorry to hear it hasn’t worked out for you this time but am loving your positivity.❤️
Hope you have a wonderful birthday and wish all the best for your next round.xxx
Thankyou so much xx it is what it is and its happened for a reason i belive .... i felt shocked when the clinic said that i was ready for transfer 5 days after my collection my body didnt feel right hopefully next time ill feel better about it all... im gonna make sure i do everything i can do to get as healthy and prepared as i can and remain strong to go again... after the birthday wines 🍷 of course ❤️😌 thankyou for your support xxx
I'm really so sorry my love this is such horrible news and such a tough journey.
Your attitude is an inspiration you are a lovely strong lady and I hope you have a lovely holiday.
Enjoy yourselves and when your ready to take this journey on head on do so and I really hope and pray for such a better outcome.
Lots of love and hugs.
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Thankyou so so much cat x x ❤️
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Ill get there i know i will i wont give up .... hope your ok xxx
That's the right attitude hun, I love it and you will get there, you'll win the war hun.
I'm OK lovely
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It’s interesting that you seemed to know. Sounds like your body wasn’t ready. Things do happen for a reason and it def sounds like that this time. Hopefully if you do a frozen cycle your body will be more prepared and can focus on the transfer.
I wish you the best of luck. A positive attitude has to help.xxxx
I’m so sorry Rachael, I’ve had 3 on the spin so I know the rollercoaster of emotions but you have the right attitude!! Go have a fabulous birthday and holiday in the wonderful knowledge you have your precious embryos when you’re ready 😉🤞🏼 Wishing you the very best of luck xxx
Thankyou so much natalie youre so strong to deal with this 3 times over ..... im so so happy that you got your happy ending youve given me hope ... thankyou for your kind words and your support ❤️ xxx
I'm gutted for you, so unfair and cruel but you will get through it. Have an amazing birthday and enjoy the wine, cake and beach walks. Hope your fur babies look after you too, don't know what I'd do without mine xx
Oh I’m so sorry to read this but definitely admire your positivity. I hope you have a lovely holiday and enjoy a large glass of wine! Xx
I'm so sorry Rachael but I'm in awe of your strength. Enjoy your holiday with your loves ones and savour that glass of wine. Take care xx
Thankyou ❤️ xx
Rachael - I am so glad to hear you are going away and taking a break.
I know you will get a positive result really soon.
You are so lucky to have 3 in the freezer and not the long wait for a full IVF round.
Enjoy your break.
xxxxxx
Thankyou so much ... i hope you dont mind me asking lots of questions when you start your fet ❤️ .... wishing you lots of luck xxx
We can help each other through it 
- you might be having your transfer before me - I am waiting to get my appointment. Just want to get started again straight away - I bet you are the same.
I have to admit I have enjoyed my few glasses of wine this week and we also went away to the seaside and was very healing to put things into perspective.
Have a lovely break.
Lots of Love
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Ahhh how lovely 😊 xx hopefully we will be at the same time ❤️ we most deffinetly can help oneanother.... i will enjoy the glasses/bottles oh what the heck boxes of wine wile im away 😂ive just had my first full hotter than warm bath 🛀 and omg ive missed it ... lots of love to you and thanks again 😘Xxx
Really sorry to hear this. Enjoy your break away and be kind to yourself. Your positivity is inspiring and I wish you all the best for the next round.xx
So sorry to hear this but like the other ladies have said, I really admire your positivity! Have a lovely relaxing holiday and an awesome 30th birthday! Xxx
Thankyou ive just had a peek at your profile ... how are you finding your fet ... my clinc have very high hopes for frozen transfers as they have more BFPs that have got past the 12 week mark with fets than fresh .... this gives me hope ❤️ xx
That’s good to hear re the FETs.. I had my transfer earlier today. It went ok, I have a bendy cervix so it’s always a bit of a mission for them to get the catheter in! It was a lot quicker today than last time tho! Just got to deal with the long wait now..! 😳 xx
Awwwww well i have everything crosssed for you ... your so brave tackleing this again I admire your strength ❤️ xxx hoping your wait goes quick for you ... the fets seem more gentle on your body so i have alot more faith because the cycle ive had has been mega stressful in many ways ... 🤞🏻 fingers crossed ill be thinking about you x x
Thank you for your kind words! ❤️ It is a lot easier on the body.. My first fresh cycle was hard, I didn’t realise just how hard until it failed! My body and mind were in agony for quite some time!
Sending lots of positive vibes your way too.. Take time to grieve and reflect and come back fighting stronger than ever next time! Xx
Rachael I'm so sorry 💔😢. As others have said, your positivity definitely is inspiring. I hope the holiday gives you some space and rest 💜 xx
Sorry to read this I’m glad you have something to look forward too enjoy your holiday and your wine xx
Rachael I’m so sorry to read this. I hope you have a nice time away and a lovely birthday 💕 xxx
So sorry Rachael. It’s truly heartbreaking. Lovely to see your positive attitude and it’s great you have something to look forward to.
Take all the time you need to heal and when your stronger and ready to go again you’ll know 😘 xxx
Thankyou amanda for your support and your kind words .... im so happy in a way i tested and knew deep down these things happen for a reason I suppose dont they ... i hope your ok ❤️ x x x
It’s very true they do happen for a reason although I know it doesn’t make it any easier. You will heal in time though and be ready to fight the fight again.
Enjoy your holiday, sounds like just what you need! Xxx 😘
Oh bollocks to that! I remember reading your BFP news just before my BFN. I felt - at least someone is getting positive news- it can happen!!
But so many people I have seen still go on to suffer sad news even after a BFP.
I’m so sorry for you hun- but your bday weekend sounds amazing and just what you need after this rollercoaster - have a brilliant time. I had a weekend away during my 2ww and I loved how I could just escape for a while xx
Keep on with the strength and positivity - frozen cycle is certainly far easier on the body and like you said at least you had a BFP and know you can get pregnant.
Good luck with everything in the future xx
Thankyou so much its so lovely that you found a positive in your own sadness that in itself describes you as a lovely person instantly ❤️❤️ xx thankyou for your kind words im keeping positive as next time i know what to expect and hopefully it will be far more easier on my body . Good luck to you also hope your ok Xxx
I did reply to you on someone else’s post.
I am so sorry for your loss it’s devastating. I know there are no words that will make you feel better. If you need to talk you know where I am; I have been through a chemical pregnancy last year and I understand what you are going through. xoxo
Awwww i must of missed it jess xxx. Its so sad isnt it to be given a taste of hope and then have it snatched away from you ... your so strong ❤️ thankyou so much for your kind words Xxx
You’re welcome just so sorry you are having to go through this 💔
It is very cruel indeed the sense of loss is indescribable and unimaginable. 💔I never thought I’d be able to continue on this journey after it happened. But time is a healer and the desire is so powerful it somehow gives you the strength you didn’t know you had to keep going ❤️(Although you will never forget the loss)
I hope you have lots of support around during this awful time. 😊
Im not that strong but I have felt a lot better since we passed what would’ve been my due date (5th April) the whole time I would’ve been in the “pregnancy time frame “ I found really difficult .
Our fertility specialist said something really lovely at our recent appointment “ through the dark cloud the silver lining is that you can conceive “ and it’s so true we really didn’t think we could after6 years of not being able to get pregnant! Trying to get something positive out of something so tragic.
Just be kind to yourselves and try not to expect too much from yourself; it is such early days ; cry when you feel the need, shout, rant because you need to release those feelings in order to move forward ❤️ don’t feel bad for needing to cry I cried loads for ages xoxo
How lovely thankyou ❤️ xx
I’m sorry to hear this, I was really hoping for you. Have a lovely holiday and enjoy a wonderfully large glass of vino xx
I am sorry to read this. So inspired by your positive outlook though. I really hope you manage to celebrate your birthday in style and enjoy your holiday. Take care of yourself x
So sorry it didn't work out for you this time hope you have a lovely break and when the time is right for you can try again hope that doesn't sound trivial not making light of your loss but great that you sound very positive x
No that’s exactly how im looking at it lovely ... thankyou for your kind words ❤️ xxx
I am so sorry..hope your holiday gives you the time and space you need xxx
Rachael am so sorry to be reading this 💔 loving your positivity tho. Enjoy your birthday, holiday and that wine 🍷 you deserve it xx
I know stacey yesterday was a hard day im just glad i know now and a can move on .... im deffinetly going to enjoy my little break away .... times a healer and who knows maby by july if i feel ready i could be doing my fet with you ❤️ xx
When I got my BFN last week it was such a mixed emotion cause I felt sad and angry it didn’t work but also felt a huge sigh of relief that i knew and could move on, I’ve decided to enjoy having my body back for a few months and focus on getting another couple of lbs off before my holidays in 4 weeks 😬 the break will do you both good. How is your OH coping? I feel like they always get forgotten about 😢 xx
Its a cruel process all isnt it all this ... i dont think ill ever pee on a test ever again ... hes ok hes been a huge rock ide be lost without him... he feels like this ivf has created a wedge between us lately and i think hes looking forward to been a normal couple again no needles no appointments no clock watching.... im sure the lbs will fall off you stacey i bet you cant wait get away for a bit i know i cant 🥂☀️Xx
Oh Rachael I’m sorry to read this. But your positivity is so inspiring! I wish you all the best for your FET whenever you decide is the best time 😘 xx
Thankyou for your kind words..... ❄️❄️❄️ im lucky i have my 3 frostys xxx
Oh I'm so sorry to read this. Just remember what a fighter you are. You will come back stronger. I Hope you have a lovely break (Anglesey is just perfect for relaxing!) Enjoy your birthday & lots of yummy drinkies! xxx
Thankyou becky hope your ok ... ill get there and i still have my frostys so there is hope .. its so hard at the beginning isnt it xxx
Hey hon. I'm ok Thankyou. Just taking each day as it comes at the moment. My current pregnancy is from 2x frosties so there is definitely Hope! Its awful in the beginning , but we find the strength from somewhere within, who knows where! My friend's say they can't believe how strong i am. But i just feel you have to be, as we have no choice! And it should empower us that we are all pretty darn amazing really! 💪❤ xxx
Hello rachael. I am so glad to know that you did not loose hope. You stayed strong. More power to you friend. We are always here for you. This forum is filled with so many helping ladies. Ready to give you advice when you need it. They are so supportive. I came here when I had problems too. And everybody was helpful. Although I have been on and off here. I was going through so much that I didn't want to crumble in front of anyone. So I let things be. But whenever I needed support, I got it. These forums are like a very low maintenance relationship. They expect nothing from you. But are always there to support you.
Thank you lovely 💖 xx
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