Pre-treatment blues

[Rainbowhope]

Tomorrow we start down reg but today I’ve been feeling awful. My haufever is out of control and I’m not taking medication just in case it impacts on treatment. I ve been feeling down all day. I feel resentful of everyone even nappy adverts are making me sad. I am scared that this won’t work and that I can’t afford another round if this doesn’t work. Just lost the faith on the eve of down reg and I don’t know why. I even told my husband that I want a divorce if we don’t have children. I don’t mean it and I’m lucky that my wonderful husband understands and doesn’t take it to heart but I’m just so low

[Ash2016]

Sorry to her this lovely. It's tough to hear yourself up again. I had the same worry about taking antihistamines on my cycle just gone but the nurse said it would be fine. I thought I'd not take it but I was nearly scratching my eyes out some days so I caved but they did say it was fine. I know how miserable that can make you so maybe worth taking - might be one less crap thing to deal with x

[Rainbowhope]

I think you’re right. I just emailed my clinic to get their advice. Thanks for responding. I feel slightly alone today 👍

[gemmy999]

Hi, sorry to hear your so low today. I have just finished 3 weeks of down reg and just started stims. The week before I started this cycle I was an emotional wreck! I couldn’t understand it. I was also so low. I spoke to a councillor and she said it is really normal to feel this way before a cycle. And actually once the cycle started I felt much better. The build up to it was worse. Obviously still get low days and some emotional times with all the hormones floating around. It’s hard to stay positive. Everyone always said to me keep positive but I’m protecting myself by not getting my hopes up. I also spoke to the councillor about this cause I was worried it would effect the treatment but it wouldn’t. So try not to beat yourself up. When you have a low day just wait till the next morning and start again. Sorry for the lengthy message I could relate so wanted to reply. Best of luck xx

[Rainbowhope in reply to gemmy999]

Morning. Thank you so much for this message. You made me feel normal so I really appreciate it. I had nightmares all night last night and have been sleeping, rather uncomfortably, with a mouth guard to stop me grinding my teeth over night. But, this morning I feel slightly more positive. My husband really struggled with my low mood right before treatment but I think youre right, I think I am trying to prepare for the worse to avoid the heartache I felt when the last cycle didn’t work. I just got to start fresh this morning and surround myself with positive thoughts ready as I start down reg this evening. Thanks 🙏 so much for your message

[gemmy999 in reply to Rainbowhope]

I’m glad you are feeling a little bit better. Best of luck xx