Saying goodbye 💜

[E_05]

This morning we had a service for our little angel which also gave us a chance to grieve for all the loss we’ve had this year. We had 6 star balloons to mark both babies we’ve lost and each embryo that didn’t take which we then released.

I feel truly grateful that we were able to have this today as I know it’s not often ‘early’ loss is recognised, it was heartbreakingly beautiful but has also given us a chance to have some closure on this year.

I feel a relief that our precious baby was recognised for the short life they lived, I’m now really trying to focus on Christmas and having some ‘time out’ to enjoy with my Hubby before we jump on the rollercoaster for round 5.

Thank you all once again for the support, this journey we are all on is one not many understand. I wish you all so much luck wherever you are on yours, remember to never lose hope 💜

[AllWeNeedIsluv]

Awwwww hun big hugs. So beautiful I'm in tears. So sorry for you and at, same time glad you feel better for doing it. Lots of love 💗💗🤗😘

[E_05 in reply to AllWeNeedIsluv]

Thank you, it definitely has helped I felt before today I had nowhere to put the grief so just kept jumping back into treatment. Hope your holding up okay xx

[AllWeNeedIsluv in reply to E_05]

Bless you hun. Sending you big hugs.💗💗. I'm cracking if I'm honest I just want it over with the worst thing is still having symptoms.💗🤗😘

[E_05 in reply to AllWeNeedIsluv]

Can totally understand that, the waiting is just torture. Really hoping things happen for you soon so you can begin your grieving xx

[Amanda86]

So beautiful!! I'm welling up here, my heart breaks for everything you've been through. Your so strong and you should be so proud of that!

Losing a baby, no matter what stage is something nobody should ever have to face, and so very sad some people face it more than once. They're forever in our hearts ❤️

I'm so pleased this has helped give you some closure.

Thinking of you and sending a big hug your way 😘 💞 Xxx

[E_05 in reply to Amanda86]

Thank you that’s so lovely, your right there little lives leave a big impact.

I hope everything is going well for you and your little rainbow, hopefully the sickness eases soon to xx

[Georgina78]

This is heartbreaking but beautiful Hun, so sorry you've experienced so much loss but I'm glad you found comfort today and I hope the break and quality time with your hubby goes some way to healing your heart xx

[E_05 in reply to Georgina78]

Thank you so much xx

[Penders]

Beautiful. I'm so glad you've had the opportunity to say goodbye. Sending you big hugs xxx

[E_05 in reply to Penders]

Thank you so much xx

[ChloBo84]

So so sorry for your losses.

Such a sad but beautiful way to say goodbye to your precious angel.

I hope you’re now able to grieve and heal well. Take care of yourself and take all the time you need.

Sending you so many hugs. Xx

[E_05 in reply to ChloBo84]

Thank you so much, we sure are it’s ‘nice’ to have somewhere to put all the grief xx

[Hidden]

So beautiful, and so sorry for your losses. I'm glad you have some closure xxc

[E_05 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you xx

[Tugsgirl]

This is lovely! They take such good care of you where you are xx

[E_05 in reply to Tugsgirl]

I know it’s all down to the bereavement midwife, we had none of it last year when she wasn’t in post what she does it truly amazing. Hope your doing okay xx

[Tezzabell86]

That’s beautiful and massive hugs. I’m sorry for your losses this year and hope 2018 is a lot kinder for you. They will always be in heart xx

[E_05 in reply to Tezzabell86]

Thank you, they definitely will xx

[Tezzabell86 in reply to E_05]

You’re welcome xx

[Dreams1982]

Sending huge hugs and love to you xx I can't even imagine how hard this must have been but to have given you some peace I hope has eased a little of the pain xx this has really moved me xx

[E_05 in reply to Dreams1982]

Thank you, aw it has helped it’s like finally our precious little ones have been acknowledged xx

[Cinderella5]

So beautiful! I'm pleased that you've had a the opportunity to say goodbye to your lost little ones!💕xx

[E_05 in reply to Cinderella5]

Thank you, hope you’re doing okay? Xx

[Cinderella5 in reply to E_05]

I'm good thank you! Making plans for moving on to the next step!xx

[E_05 in reply to Cinderella5]

That’s good, I think having a plan definitely helps xx

[sanj76]

I’m so so sorry to read such a sad post but what a wonderful thing to do E, my thoughts are with you during this difficult time and with the huge heart you have, you have passed on well wishes. It’s a tough tough emotional journey to endure. I wish you well in whatever you do from here on in. May you be blessed in every possible able way E, sending hugs

[E_05 in reply to sanj76]

Thank you so much for your lovely message. Massive congratulations to you and your wife on your beautiful little girl x

[sanj76 in reply to E_05]

Much appreciated E

[louisear]

what a beautiful thing to do. You are one strong brave lady xx

[E_05 in reply to louisear]

Thank you xx

[NMP1026]

Awe hun. You have left me without words. Sending you love and hugs xx

[E_05 in reply to NMP1026]

Aw thank you xx

[ICSIRose]

Cried reading this! I’m so glad you got to say goodbye properly, you have been through so much! Thinking of you my lovely xxxx

[E_05 in reply to ICSIRose]

Aw sorry, thank you it was lovely to get the chance to say goodbye. Hope your doing okay xx

[ICSIRose in reply to E_05]

I bet it was, looks like it was a beautiful little service for your little angel! You have been so strong and brave, sending you a huge hug! I’m doing okay thank you!!! Xxxx 💝

[Fredaflintstone]

This is so beautiful- what an amazing thing to do! 💕💕💕xxx

[E_05 in reply to Fredaflintstone]

Thank you, hope you and your twins are doing well xx

[Fredaflintstone in reply to E_05]

We’re good thank you. Just waiting for 12 week scan now - booked private one cos NHS one was for 13 weeks. Can’t wait that long. First day today with v little nausea. Xxx

[Hidden]

That’s so beautiful I’m so glad you got to say goodbye xxx

[E_05 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you, hope things are going okay for you xx

[Hidden]

This is so beautiful and such an amazing thing that you were supported to have. I can't imagine how hard this was for you and your husband. Thinking of you both xx

[E_05 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you, I know we are so grateful that we had this chance it was an emotionally tough morning but I feel like it was something I had control over to make perfect for our little angel xx

[Hidden in reply to E_05]

I can't begin to imagine how tough it was for you. It looks absolutely perfect and brought tears to my eyes. Xx

[Ang24816]

This is so beautiful hun. What a lovely service for all of your little angels ❤ I hope you are doing okay this evening and things get easier for you both. Xxxx

[E_05 in reply to Ang24816]

Thank you xx

[baby2016]

Aw this is so sad and so beautiful at the same time. Sending you a huge hug xxx

[E_05 in reply to baby2016]

Thank you, it really was beautiful xx

[AS100]

Thinking of you and your family 💞 xxx

[E_05 in reply to AS100]

Thank you xx

[cryst4l]

So sorry for what you have gone through. Beautiful pictures will be cherished forever. Now you have some closure and have some time to focus on yourselves and enjoy xmas. well done for staying strong. all the best xx

[E_05 in reply to cryst4l]

They definitely will, treasure memories. Thank you, I feel more positive about Christmas this year than I did last xx

[S1mon3]

This is beautiful! You are the kind of people that deserve this so much. I honesty hope you get what you deserve & I’m sending you all the strength you need to go through the journey once more. Like you said, we are all living this together. You are not alone. And I’m sure with the right mind set and support your dreams will come true. Hang on in there 💙💗

[E_05 in reply to S1mon3]

Thank you so much for such a lovely message, I hope your doing okay xx

[Poppy16]

Aww this makes me feel so emotional. What a beautiful tribute. Feel so sorry you have suffered all these losses. You will always be the mum of these special babies. Trusting that 2018 will bring you and your husband much deserved happiness and joy.xo

[E_05 in reply to Poppy16]

Thank you so much for all your continued support it has meant such much to me xx

[TTCs]

So sorry for your loss, thinking of you 😘

[E_05 in reply to TTCs]

Thank you xx

[Daxi16]

Beautiful thinking of you all xx

[E_05 in reply to Daxi16]

Thank you xx

[Rubinaa]

I don't know what to write, nothing in the whole world can reduce the pain and the grief your going through, I hope god makes it your turn with the next round of ivf, i hope this very same forum hears your good news which will eventually wipe away all the tears you've shed and only bring you happiness in abundance. You will be in my prayers. 🍀🍀🍀🍀

[E_05 in reply to Rubinaa]

Aw thank you, I hope I’m able to share good news with you all xx

[Hidden]

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[Shanks_21]

So beautiful so sorry for everything you’ve been through praying you get your happy ending soon sending lots of love and hugs xxxx

[E_05 in reply to Shanks_21]

Thank you xx

[Sunshine09]

Thinking of you xx❤️😘💋

[E_05 in reply to Sunshine09]

Thank you xx

[Sunset81]

Oh my god you poor poor thing my whole heart goes out to you god bless you you are one amazing lady xxxxx

[E_05 in reply to Sunset81]

Thank you so much xx

[Tranters]

This is so beautiful. So sorry for your loss. Sending lots of love your way xxxxxxxx

[Hidden]

Thinking of you xxx

[Chimpy2505]

What a beautiful idea, sending you lots of love xx

[Hayleigh86]

So sorry for all you have both been through. Sending lots of love xx

[vic77]

how beautiful and such a lovely way to remember your babies and embryos forever. I am right here with you for round 5 in the new year. I hope you can enjoy some good times before then..much love xxx

[E_05 in reply to vic77]

Thank you, hopefully round 5 will be lucky for us both xx

[vic77 in reply to E_05]

yeah I am coining a new phrase...5th time lucky 🍀🍀🍀🍀xxxx

[Kyell2]

This is just beautiful and very moving!

It must have been very upsetting but maybe worth the pain on the day if it brought about some peace and closure.

I’m so glad you got the chance to say goodbye in your way xx

[E_05 in reply to Kyell2]

Thank you, it was definitely worth the pain I managed to read a poem to for our little angel. Memories we’ll treasure forever xx

[Hidden]

I’m so, so sorry for your loss, heartbreaking but beautiful 😔

Thinking of you and hoping you soon get your hearts desire!

😘🌹xoxo

[Hormomalmess]

This is so sad but also so beautiful. Big hugs xxx

[Kimross1]

That is the most beautiful service ❤️ I am sooo sorry you've gone through all that & in just one year is truly heartbreaking, I'm sat here crying my eyes out for you.. life can be so cruel and no one deserves the heartbreak that you both have had.. but hopefully your next cycle will be the one! And you finally get your miracle ✨ you deserve it soo much! ❤️ Xx

[E_05 in reply to Kimross1]

Aw thank you, your right life can be cruel in the way it tests us. I know I have the brightest stars watching over me now. We all deserve our happy endings xx

[lauren3189]

aww so sorry you have been through such a sad time i am glad you got to do this, it's such a heartbreaking thing to see but i hope you feel okay as can be now xx

[E_05 in reply to lauren3189]

Thank you, i feel some comfort from being able to have the service yesterday xx

[Positive2022]

Hi lovely, i'm truly sorry to hear about everything you have been through, you've been so strong. I'm pleased you have been able to have some closure. I have fingers and toes crossed that 2018 will be a better year for us all. Sending you BIG hugs xxx

[E_05 in reply to Positive2022]

Thank you so much, i hope your doing okay xx

[Missy_22]

Hi

I have been there this year saying goodbye to my little girl. I feel your pain. Take time out and look after yourself. It does get easier I promise. Big big hugs xxxx❤️

[E_05 in reply to Missy_22]

Thank you, I am so sorry for you loss to and the heartache you’ve been through. I definitely need the time out this time, hope your doing okay xx

[Missy_22 in reply to E_05]

It gets easier. Time is a healer. You take care xxx

[sk85]

Looks like a beautiful service. Such a strong and brave lady, hope next year is kinder to you xx

[Coracle]

This is so so beautiful. I am so glad you had this very special and beautiful time. Thinking of you as you continue to heal and recover xx

[lorraineb61]

That's lovely you were allowed to do that - sometimes you need to stop & let everything out which allows you to get back to a place where you have some control.

Good luck for cycle 5 in the New Year x

[Diamonddream]

This is so beautiful, I really hope this helps you feel better and help you to the next chapter!! Sending love and hugs xxx

[-noodles-]

what a beautiful tribute, you are so incredibly strong.

sending love & light ✨💕✨💕

[Hidden]

Thinking of you 💔❤️

[Hidden]

What a brave and lovely thing to do. You're such a positive person and I hope the future brings you all the good things you deserve xxx

[_MrsC]

So beautiful. I’m so sorry you’ve had so much to go through but am glad you have had the chance to say a proper goodbye. xxx

[Scarlett13]

Wow, a very touching post. Beautiful photo. I think it's really important that you got to do this. I'm so sorry for what you've been through. I hope 2018 will be your year, my year, and everyone's year xxx

[E_05 in reply to Scarlett13]

Thank you, I hope it is to we all deserve a good year! Xx

[emiraven62]

This is so beautiful and sad. I'm very sorry for your losses. There is a song that says that children do not die, but that they go to heaven to gather stars until some day we see them again. The balloons reminded me of that. I'm sure your babies take care of you from where they are.

I hope things improve soon. A hug.

xx

[E_05]

Thank you, so sorry for your loss to. I also had a MMC on my first cycle but your right somehow you find the strength form everyone around you to get through. Where are you on your journey at the mo? x

[Hannas]

How beautiful and sending hugs x

[tiger-cub]

Awwww I'm in tears that u did it . It's beautiful . I've lost so much of me over all these years . It's as if a part of me has Siri with every failure it miscarriage . God bless u xx