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Wobbles

So last night I had a major wobble, which I'm really cross with myself for. On Thursday my OH is having his SSR and this week should be about him and not me!

As crazy as it sounds I think it started because of the blummin Sky Cinema Christmas advert on TV - the one where the mum and daughter watch The Sound of Music and the final scene eventually goes to the daughter having grown up and now her daughter is sitting watching the same film. I just thought will that ever be me?! I think this Christmas is the first one where I really miss not being able to me a mum or a mum to be.

I jumped in a bath to chill out and calm down but I'm currently feeling really bloated and fat and I'm on day 37 of my cycle (usually 32 days). Most woman are pregnant at this stage, I'm just fat and feeling sorry for myself. I think I'm stressing as my periods are starting to get further and further apart for no apparent reason. We are going through ICSI as my husband had failed vasectomy reversal, the last I was checked I came back 'fine' but now I'm starting to worry something is wrong with me.

Can someone please tell me to put my big girl pants on and catch a grip.....

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aww sorry to hear you are feeling like this, it definitely must be with the advert because i felt like that too with that one!! went on a real downhill of negative thoughts.

i hope everything works out for you both xx

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Hi LauraM1986. Only solution I suppose is to watch the BBC channels! These Christmas ads do tug at the heartstrings loads, but that just shows the kind side to your nature reacting the way you have. Try not to worry too much about your menstrual cycles, as we can work around them with drugs to suit the treatment cycle. Hope all goes well with the sperm retrieval, and of course I wish you both huge success. I shall be thinking of you both. Diane

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We all have days like that. It’s a really difficult process and full of emotional highs and lows. Don’t be too hard on yourself. Wishing you lots of luck xx

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Aww totally normal lovely to feel this way. I have had so many 'wobbles', we're bound to have lots of up and down days with what we are having to go through. It was only yesterday I was saying how cross I am with my body for not doing what it's suppose to do, my cycles just seem to be getting shorter and shorter every month. Don't be too hard on yourself and allow yourself time to get things off your chest. Always makes me feel better! If you need a chat, feel free to message me xxx

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Just wanted to send big hugs, I remember been like that over the Amazon advert with the dog , baby and the lion mane, thinking thoughts of never been a mammy, I think I will lock myself in the cupboard this year no Christmas ads lol.

We are definatly all entitled to wobbles, and it's better to let it out rather than bottle it up.

Hope your hubby ssr goes well

X

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Thank you all so much for replying and making me feel a lot better and slightly less bonkers, ha! I suppose we wouldn't be human if we didn't have wobbles. I think once Thursday is out of the way and we can concentrate on 'my part' I'll feel a little more in control and like we are finally moving forward. xxx

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no its not silly. Its because that ad brings up insecurities of what you want for yourself but its proving hard to come by.

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That makes perfect sense in my head - thank you!

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