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3rd BFN 💔

I've kept myself quiet for the last few months, I didn't want to 'temp fate' by talking about my 3rd try. But yesterday I got my BFN and it's hit me the hardest this time around. I was so positive, I had given it my absolute everything and yet we still failed. This journey is so hard!! I can't face anyone or anything right now, the 'chin up' speeches are just not what I want to hear. I feel so sad and lost this time. I spent the last 2 weeks (and time before that) truly believing this was our time. I had a scratch, embryoglue, acupuncture and a top grade embryo transferred and my womb lining was above 8mm and it STILL didn't work! 😥 xx

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I’m so so so sorry to read this Gurty.... easier said then done I know but we are all here to support you. Just take it easy and look after yourself ok

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Thank you Sanj. Congratulations on the birth of your little miracle too ❤️

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Much appreciated Gurty

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I’m so sorry xx

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I am really sorry to read this. Big hugs xx

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So sorry to hear this . Sending huge hugs xx

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Thank you! I have my follow up on the 28th Nov so I have to try and get positive again xx

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So sorry, it really is such a tough journey. Look after yourself xx

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It really is! It certainly takes its toll on you doesn't it. I have to carry on and get strong again! Thank you for your message xx

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Grief is part of the process of getting strong again- make sure you allow yourself to grieve in the way that’s right for you xxx

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I'm so so sorry to hear this ... I also had my 3rd BFN last month. It's crushing ! 😥 ... we put so much effort, emotion and money into this process then to have it ripped from underneath our feet is just cruel. As you say with the chin up comments, I just needed people to accept my pain, I didn't want to hear it will be fine, or try again there's next time. I wanted people to acknowledge how sad and helpless i felt. A month on I feel better but it's left a mark on me. I'm just taking it day by day, week by week. If I have a crying pj day I just go for it now. I found it important to rest and sometimes let the grief consume me, I had to mourn because for me it is a loss. 3 times this year I've prepared myself for a baby that is not coming and like every assumed future or loss it will be grieved. I hope you feel better soon, take care of yourself ❤️

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I am so sorry to hear you have also had 3 BFN's! It's so sad, and like you say, the only way I can describe the feeling is as grieving for a loss. I feel empty. Everyone seems to think that because there is a 'next time' you'll be ok, just give it another go....like it's so simple. I feel for you Hun, it's good to hear that a month on you are feeling better but it still never leaves us does it. Sending you a big hug and some strength for whatever your choices are for your path moving forward 🌈❤️

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I’m so sorry this journey is the hardest ever we are all here for you xxxx

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Thank you Missy that's so kind of you. I've started my bleed so I'm feeling even more sorry for myself but I'm off for lunch with my sister-in-law today to try and cheer me up and take my mind off things xxx

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Oh bless you. So sorry to see this. I’ve had mine today but I’d tested a few days ago and made my peace that it wouldn’t be our time again. It’s so hard. Sending loads of love xx

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Oh Loopielu I am so so sorry to hear that too. It is so tough, we pray for that positive test and it's so crushing when it isn't. Sending you a huge hug and lots of love ❤️ it's so unfair xx

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So sorry to read this 🙁 Xxx

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Thank you Amanda xxx

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So sorry to read this, it really is so unfair. Take care of yourself xx

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Im so sorry! Thinking of you!xx

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Thank you. I thought I was doing Ok but today I just don't know. Can't seem to shift it at all this time....😔 xx

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