And another BFN .... 😭

[AlexHoBo]

That's it, bloodtest results are clear, 2nd FET hasn't worked despite all efforts....

Thought I was fine but I am crushed and feel pretty sick. 😿

2 and a half year TTC, 4th Treatment in less than a year, am exhausted and don't understand why it just doesn't want to happen....

We don't have any frozen embryos left and we are now done with Private treatment, pretty broke now.... will take a break until the new year and start on the NHS which freaks me out....

i feel the clock is ticking big time (37) and again freaks me out.

Sorry for the breakdown, I just had to vent 😲

Have a good weekend ladies 🌈

[cazzarocks]

I'm so sorry to hear this you. It really is such a horrible and depressing thing to go through. Are you able to try and take a proper break whilst you wait for NHS treatment to come through?

My husband and I are in a similar position - we didn't get any frosties but had a late miscarriage after our IVF and so are also back to square one (we went private but waiting for the NHS round to kick in). After the miscarriage, we put together a bucket list of things that we couldn't do if we were pregnant - went on holiday and had a drink (first time in a long time!) and took up ballroom dancing - that's really helped - something fun to do and to take our minds off it so we're not at home talking about infertility.

I'm also 37 so completely hear you with the very loud ticking biological clock. It all just seems so unfair.

I really hope that you try and treat yourself this weekend and take a big step away from the whole nightmare IVF routines. look after yourself. x

[AlexHoBo in reply to cazzarocks]

Thanks so much and sorry to hear you had a miscarriage

Off to New York for work next Thursday, will give me a chance to think about sthg else!

Good luck to you too 😘

[cazzarocks in reply to AlexHoBo]

New York sounds fab - I've always wanted to go there! Hope you're resting up and looking after yourself this weekend.

[Hidden]

So sorry to hear this. I know how you feel as I had 4 failed cycles but was successful on my 5th. Give yourself time away from it all and then your will feel hopeful and ready to go again xxx

[AlexHoBo in reply to Hidden]

Thanks!!!! Glad it worked out for you in the end. Trying to keep faith 🌈xx

[StephyBuch in reply to Hidden]

It just takes it's own time! Doesn't matter if the biological clock is ticking or you give up trying actively. Happens when it have to happen. We just have to have a little hope.

[kumkums]

I'm so sorry to read this. I had really hope you will get a bfp coupled with the no symptom thing. Please take time to rest. Big hugs from me.

[AlexHoBo in reply to kumkums]

So sweet thank you. Really crushed this time round but goodbye hormones , me time for a bit! 😘

[E_05]

So sorry to read this, take some time away from treatment and to grieve. Hopefully your feeling a little stronger soon xx

[AlexHoBo in reply to E_05]

Thanks 🙏🏻 xx

[Fredaflintstone]

So sorry to hear this. 😢 It's so unfair. My heart goes out to you. Look after yourself xxxx

[AlexHoBo in reply to Fredaflintstone]

Thank you !!! 😢 it is unfair when you think you re doing everything right and it still doesn't work. Xx

[Fredaflintstone in reply to AlexHoBo]

I know. We try so hard, put everything on hold and hope and pray it will work. I'm sure it will one day lovely. Take a little break and have a bit of fun. I'm sure you'll get there. Xxxx

[Leo2017]

So sorry to read this!! 💔 Look after yourself!! xx

[AlexHoBo in reply to Leo2017]

Thanks so much 🌈 will do. hot bath 🛀🏼 and a glass of wine 🍷tonight ....

[Lorry1984]

Sorry you're going through this. Its such a difficult journey but you will find the strength for it. Take care xx

[Amanda86]

I'm so sorry 🙁🙁 sending you big hugs! Xxx

[vic77]

So sorry hun..I am still drinking after my 3rd bfn last week..it is heartbreaking isn't it..take the time you need allow all ups and downs and know we are always here with similar thoughts and feelings..hugs xxx

[itsworks17]

Oh. Very sorry to hear this. Stay strong and have a rest. Huge and strong hug from me ❤️

[Leesara]

Sorry to hear that. Take time and be kind to yourselves oxo

[_MrsC]

I'm so sorry. It is truly soul destroying and so hard to pick yourself up from. Sending you a really big hug. Xxx

[Sweets1]

Im so sorry, I haven't got far in my journey yet but I'm always a good ear xx

[StephyBuch]

So sorry to hear about your unfruitful result. I know, no amount of words can actually console you at this point. But I'd still say, hold onto the hope. Me and Hubby TTC for almost 2 years, before giving up on it. I was 35 and didn't want to continue after our second IVF failed. Not a single BFP till then! Neither could we afford private clinic in UK nor had the emotional strength to continue being disappointed. But at 37 I delivered my twins (6 years now), that's too naturally. I guess we all have a time. Maybe you're not their yet. I wouldn't ask you to give up on fertility assistance though, but just be optimistic.

[Ang24816]

Hi hun. I'm so sorry to hear you had another failure. I too have just had my 4th round in a year and completely understand how you feel....its so draining. I had two failures, a misscarrage and a chemical pregnancy...we are going straight into a 5th go as I feel like I have to keep going but a break sounds very sensible, you have to take the time you need to greive. Let me know if you ever wanna chat. Xx

[Lou9]

Really sorry to hear this. Thinking of you. Xx

[Cinderella5]

Sorry to hear your news! Sending big hugs!xx

[sanj76]

So sorry to read things didn't work out Alex but hope you can maybe take some encouragement from the fact the we are going the NHS in london and it's not so bad (no perfect but not bad at all), my wife was 39 when we started this journey.

I hope you will continue your journey again next year and we wish you all the very best and hope your blessed enough Alex

[Hidden]

I'm so sorry to hear this, it really isn't fair. Take time to grieve and have a break but don't give up! The NHS is very available to you so its not the end! Big love xx

[Hidden]

I'm really sorry. Take care of yourself. I'm getting ready for my fourth cycle in a couple of months. This time will be FET.it really is frustrating but this group keeps me going. All the best for the future

[AlexHoBo]

Just wanted to say a massive thank you to all of you for your supportive messages!!!

Never thought this forum would be so helpful but it is, big time!

This time is really hitting hard, many more tears & heartache (oh and AF arrived today, yay...) but will take some time out and come back to it in a few months. Good luck to you all and much love xxx