So Iv had a rough weekend with lots of crying, screaming and a panic attack all over my lovely mother-tbh I hate her.
But what I realised is that all that stress with the stress of infertility is not helpful or productive at all. And though it's difficult I came to understand with hubbys help that I need to look after myself regardless if my mother cares or not I can't expect anything from her and more over I need to be kind to myself as it is soo true when ur down ur alone and only u can pick urself up.
I believe that we are strong all in our own ways and we will cry but we will step up and get on realising that hurting ourselves emotionally or physically is a waste and only we are losing out.
Being 28 i sometimes think that I'm a adult I don't need my mum but just her words and her general no care really hurts but I can't change her so by shouting and crying she is not getting hurt only I am.
My mother asked me why I want children and then added look at my children they are monsters! I just thought god why are you my mother. The similarity is that my mother has no idea what infertility feels like and the emotional journey is it.
Apologies for the long rant it just needed to come out but I'm feeling much more positive I have lots to live for and am grateful for it all.
Lots of baby dust to u all xx
U guys can be my adopted forum mum lol