Quality not quantity....

[El1a80]

Hi ladies. I've been following your posts for a while but not posted myself before. Feeling rather sorry for myself today so thought I'd give it a go. We are on our second icsi cycle. First one didn't go too well so different drugs, upped the dosage and off we go again. I started my injections last Tuesday and finding second time round really over whelming. My eggs weren't great quality last time, which they said could be completely different this time with different drugs but I feel so pressured now. I've had two scans, the first I had one at 13 and 6 less than 10. Today I had one at 15, 3at 11 and 5 less than 10. There obviously aren't a huge number and I was hoping they would have grown more by now. They say quantity doesn't matter it is quality, but I can't help but feel these aren't going to be good either. I'm normally so positive about things but feel really empty today. Trying to drag myself back to work and all I want to do is get in bed!! Sorry for the moan, just feels like no one understands.... Although I think the moaning may have helped me feel a little better. Thanks for reading. Good luck with your journeys xx

[DianeArnold Partner Nurse Fertility Network UK]

Hi Ella80. Does you good to have a moan, so no need to apologise. It does look your follicles should be a decent size to receive eggs when ready, even if you need a few more days of stimulation, so try not to worry to much. Just wanted to wish you well with this round, and of course for success this time. Thinking of you. Diane.

[El1a80 in reply to DianeArnold]

Thanks for your message! Feeling a bit less sorry for myself now. My follicles grew slowly last time and it didn't go well so was hoping quicker growth this time. Thanks for your encouragement though, it's so easy to just think the worst! Xx

[Hidden]

Hi El1a80,

I'm not sure if I can be of help but last month I felt the same as you.

I have just gone through my second round of ICSI (we are unexplained and im just turned 37). We had no frozen eggs from the first cycle in fact only 1 blastocyst which didn't take. On our most recent round of ICSI (last month) we had only 6 mature follicles, which in the end again only produced 5 mature eggs but lead to only 1 blastocyst. Long of the story is I am now 5 weeks pregnant. Hopefully It will be strong enough to stay.

Dont give up, keep positive xxx

[El1a80 in reply to Hidden]

Hi, thanks for your message. Congratulations on your pregnancy, really hope things go well for you. Also really encouraging to hear peoples experiences. 'm 37 as well. First time round I had 6 fertilised but only 2 still growing at day 5 but neither had reached blastocyst stage. Fingers crossed it goes better this time. As they say, you only need one! Best of luck xxx

[Gueritarubia]

Sorry to hear but different drugs can do wonders! I had 9 eggs first cycle, but none good enough to even contemplate transfer. Different drugs second cycle, got 15 and am now pregnant from the first blast we transferred and have seven high quality ones left in the freezer. At my last scan things still didn't look promising but then on collection all was great! See my old posts. Good luck, I'll be thinking of you and hopefully you'll have the same fate as us! 15w1d today

[El1a80 in reply to Gueritarubia]

Hi, thanks for your message, congratulations! really encouraging to read. I'll have a nose at your earlier posts later! Feeling a bit more positive now and fingers crossed I'll have an outcome like yours. Hope things continue to go really well for you xx

[Lola675]

Sorry to hear that so many women struggle with those things! Each one of us has a right to be a mother... Take care and hope for best!