I have had hard times throughout my life. Many times I've dealt with stuff that I thought were the bottom of the hell. Some other times I would think that it can't get any worse. During any of those periods I couldn't think that it could get any worse. How could I imagine that the worse was to come. Infertility is truly the hardest thing I have ever dealt with. Every time I would face something in the past, my artistic side would blossom. I like to call myself an artist. Like every couple me and my husband had our fights. During those time for example I would do draw so many paintings... Usually roses, broken hearts. I know I sound like a 16 years old who just broke up with her boyfriend and is currently in a boring class. However that helped me get ride of the pain. Now it's different... I can't draw... I am drowning, drowning in my own tears and own sorrow! I am not going to give up though!!! I am going on, going on STRONG, stronger than ever before!
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Going on strong...
Ohhh dear god! I am sorry for you Alessia. I kinda see myself in you. Just like you, I never thought I will face something as horrible as infertility. When it hit me, it hit me hard. If you are interested in my story you can check a thread I made a long while ago. You have my entire support baby. Don't give up! I know it's hard because I am in the same situation. I have experienced the sadness that infertility can bring. The feeling of drowning, in my own sorrow and tears as you put it. I am sure thing will get better. For you and for me too. Eventually, after the long painful nights, the morning will shine, and then... We will be happy. You'll see that the battle is over, you will witness your victory. I am telling you these words because I want to believe in them, myself too. It;s great to know that you keep going on, stronger than ever. I promise I'll do the same. I have my eyes pointed at the victory, and I will keep looking that way until my hands touch it!
Thanks for the support and for the kind words. I did read your story... It's sad and unfair. At least we have each other here. You know the best thing you can do when you are going through something super hard, is to share it with people who understand. This place has helped me a lot with that. I made a post a while ago and the support was amazing. Do believe in your words, they are nothing short of the truth. I know that sometimes it might feel like this is the end. The sun will go up, no matter what though! Personally, I owe a lot to my husband too... He has be the greatest support. He keeps smiling no matter what. Never has he lost his optimistic stand point. If it wasn't for him, god knows where I would have ended up.
I will believe my own words. I will believe that I am going to become a mother, no matter what. Your husband is awesome. You're lucky Alessia! Many women would kill for a man like that :D! The same applies to me. My husband is the greatest support I have. He does stand-ups for a living. I think you can imagine how it is being around him. He will make me laugh no matter what. Like even in the saddest point, hell make me laugh! He cracks jokes out of everything. That;s how I fell for him in the first place. His comedy made me love him. He is kind alike you. I think comedy is an art, and he is a master artist. Come to think of it, what type of painting do you do? Like the themes, because I don't have much knowledge. What sort of thing do you usually paint, is what I am trying to ask.
Ohh mio dio! That's super awesome. I love comedians! I always had this thing for funny guys. The way I see it, funny people are usually genius smart. Coming up with jokes, and with funny things is hard. Give it a try and you'll see what I am talking about. You sure are blessed. Also sorry for not responding in a while. I had to deal with some stuff. Started working on another painting too. I'm going through a weird phase! I feel like a have the idea of what I want to draw in my mind, but I cant see it. It's so complicated. It's hard to explain it with words. Anyway I hope things have been fine at your end too!
The same applies to me. As I said that's how he won my heart. He used to make me laugh... Like laugh a lot! I used to feel super good around him! This good feeling eventually developed into the love i feel for him today. Things have been smooth for me. I am glad your finally getting yourself back. Keep on like this. Without realizing it you'll have the inspiration you seek. Trust me you will. Remember you don't have it the worst. Also dont worry for not replying. I have been busy myself. Had you not mentioned it, I wouldn't had noticed. I haven't been around this place much either. Much love xx
I can definitely relate to things you've have written. I too never thought I would have to deal with infertility, life is cruel but somehow we will all continue to grow strong on this rollercoaster journey. I often feel like I'm drowning, I tell people I feel like a duck 'to the world I look like I'm happily floating along the water but underneath I'm kicking my legs like mad to stay afloat' it seems to of helped the few that know about my IVF understand a little.
Keep strong xx
First of all thanks for your reply. Secondly sorry for me responding this late too you. I hope good things start to happen to you. The way you describe your state... Jesus Christ, it's weird. It feels like my soul is talking to me. I am sorry for what your going through. I know how you feel. We have each other though. Can I know more about your IVF? Would that be alright? I really love hearing stories from you folks here. That's one of the main reasons I came to this place. Anyways, enough of me babbeling. I wish you overcome every obstacle. I really hope that. With great love Alessia.
No problem at all, ah I'm glad it made sense. I was worried it did in my head but wouldn't written down lol
Yeah of course, ive just started down reg for my 4th cycle (2nd fresh) I had my 1st fresh cycle last year and fell pregnant but miscarried. Followed by 2 FET cycles unsuccessful so been a rough old year but I feel determined to do what I need to get my healthy baby. How are you? X
No actually it came out very good. So much so that I nearly asked whether your a writer or something. I am sorry for what you have been through. It breaks my heart to think that after being able to conceive, still you can lose the battle. It truly stinks!
Thanks for worrying about me. Honestly I haven't done anything yet. I can't find the courage to. I just know that it will come to it one day. As of now, I know for sure I am infertile but I like staying in denial for a little while. This is mostly due to the fact that I will have to go abroad for treatment. IVF is illegal here, so yeah. As for now I'm doing nothing. Just trying to be as healthy as I can so that I don't fail my IVF. Ohh, and sometimes I cry... But that shouldn't come as a shocker LOL! xx
Oh thanks but no I'm not lol I know it's a cruel journey that we're on but hopefully our happen endings aren't to far away.
That's understandable, you need to take time to grieve for the loss of what we're all lead to believe our bodies 'should' be able to do. That's a hard thing to come to terms with to, I still get angry/upset about it all the time. Oh really where do you live? I hadn't realised IVF was illegal anywhere. Your entitled to cry as much as you need xx
Italy... The anus of Europe. Wait, that Balkans... I guess were something like the armpit? Jokes aside, it's illegal here. Or at least it's very, very complicated to have any type of MAR. There are some other issues that make it harder for me personally. However IVF is pretty much illegal. I think only if you have genetic infertility, you can get some type of MAR!
I`m so sorry for you.
After mc and ttc for over 2 years and as finishing touch - "Impaired" health.
Just knotting things for my baby, while recovering health (in my, almost, 37).
It helps so much.
Try to draw a places, where you`ll go with the baby. It should be easier and more productive.
Man, I feel sorry for you. You are strong as stone lady! I swear to god your as strong as fictional characters in books and comics... Actually fuck that! You're even stronger. You're an inspiration to all of us here. A model on how to never give up. Thanks for sharing parts of your story with me. I bet the things you'll knot will look super good on your baby. Keep on strong as you have for so long. Thanks for the idea too. As I mentioned above, I have this weird inspiration. The idea is on my head, somewhere... I just can't find it. Only yesterday I stood for a full hour standing and just trying to visualize this thought. I couldn't! Your story hoever has given me the motivation I needed. I am thinking of a new drawing now, I just hope that my depression wont get in the way. Thanks for motivating me this much.
Hey Alessia! your post was really emotional. I am sure many women around the world can relate to you. Infertility is truly the hardest and most depressing mishappening. You can never stop thinking about it. However, as you said in the end, through the pain you need to come out stronger than ever. do not stop believing in yourself. This is part of your life and you have to fight through this. There are many conception methods that can be considered. Just stay strong love and be hopeful. My best wishes are with you!
Hi dear. I am, really sorry to read about the hard times you have been going through. No doubt it is really the most unpleasant experience ever. I really feel for you my dear. You are really a strong woman and you must not put yourself down. These are the hardships of life and we should face them with our heads up. There is no need to worry while you have many other options available too. They can really help you in this regard.You can go for surrogacy as it will be the most suitable for you. There are many clinics which offer surrogacy at best cheap rates. They have really professional and best staff who can help you out in this regard. You have to chose the best clinic upon their performance as there are many scams too. Adonis is one of the scammers in this list who looted people who went there for treatment. They played with the life and time of people. So you must be careful while choosing the clinic. I wish best of luck for you. May you pain ends soon and you be blessed with a good and healthy life.
Hi Alessia. Hope you're doing good. Im so impressed to know about your strong behaviour which u have shown through your hard time. Well you have already faced with this problem and you do have experience about all this problem. I would like to tell you about the event which is organised in london. In london event they are going to discuss about it in detail. You're more lucky than some of other womens who suffer with this problem all alone but you had your husband with you. You're stronger my dear. And the things you did during your hard time were great. I want you to come in london and share your experience. Limited seats are available there please grap your seat asap. It can help many other women through you to overcome with this problem patiently. God bless u. Take Care.
Hello, beautiful ladies,I think life is a testing place,we all have to try to pass every situation strongly.i think infertility make us so weak .we have no control over something,we are trying our best,but it's not happening for us.thats why we feel guilty and can't be a happy person.i think patience and preyer are the two thing that can help us.lots of love for lovely mama's like us.😍😍😍i thik we will be great mums of your beautiful children.
hey hun.im so sorry you are experiencing this. please just love yourself. don't lose hope. nor be disappointed. get yourself tested by a doctor. you will have a baby.ou are amazing. you are strong. I'm here to support you. best of luck. try going for surrogacy or IVF.
Hi, so sorry to know about this. I can understand your situation. Infertility is such a tough journey. It is a difficult phase of life. Sweetheart doesn't feel alone. You will be able to deal with it. Nothing is impossible even the word impossible says I M POSSIBLE. Sometimes it seems that there is no way it out. But sweetheart that point is not the end. Something amazing is waiting for us. Just handle this situation patiently. Don't lose hope. Believe me, seeing your hope many people have the motivation to deal with their situation. Surround yourself with those who provide you with happiness. You will soon be blessed with an angel. Stay strong love.
Hello dear! I hope you are doing great. I know how infertility feels like. I have been where you are right now. Infertility is heart breaking. It makes you so down. But you gotta get up. You should not leave your passion. You should keep painting. You should not give up. Why don't you go to London? My fav team is coming there. They will prove helpful for you. Good luck. Stay blessed.
I empathize with you on your loss. I am so sorry to hear about your loss. I know this is so hard. But you have to fight it. Try to spend more time in doing what you love. Also, try going for a walk daily. It will surely help you in this. More power to you.
Hi Alessia, I joined these forums tonight and i came across your post. You sound exactly the same as me. I'm an artist too and only today I was thinking ive gone through some terrible times, but nothing like this. I can see your post is 2 years, I hope things developed positively for you after this.
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