Story so far.....so close.....and the witch is here!

[sunshineyellow]

Hello lovely people

So I thought I'd update on what's been happening with me. It's great to see so many BFPs on here recently!!!

So we had a first cycle back in March. Tested day before OTD with a faint line, OTD with clinics test did not come up in the 3 mins allocated, and the instructions were very strict that if no line in 3 mins it's a fail. I had already started spotting, and the next day was bleeding. In my mind I didn't see how this could result in a pregnancy. I must admit I think I talked the nurse into letting me stop taking the pessaries.

AF came and went (though no heavy as expected) and a couple of weeks later had a heavy bleed which continued. Went for HCG and score was 2,400. Turns out I was pregnant. Have been going for weekly blood tests to check HCG coning down, and about 6 weeks later it's finally <5. Being labelled as having a miscarriage when I never even thought I was pregnant.

What a frustrating process and so many what ifs. How were we to know?

So clinic says we need to have 3 periods before we start again ( well me, not DH!!). Today, only 2 days late my second period came. And still because it was late I thought perhaps there's a tiny chance I could be pregnant. Of course not, the 3 certain things in life are death, taxes and the witch!!

So one more to wait then we can begin again. We have 4 frozen embryos which we're incredibly grateful for, so will be trying natural frozen cycle. I can't wait to get on with it, in the meantime so many friends, family, colleague have fallen pregnant that I'm scared to socialise now for fear of another announcement. Focussing on myself for the next month, have a busy month of work and roll on Aug!!

Thanks for reading and I'll be posting again in August. Hope you all are doing well whether you're just starting out, injecting, 2ww-ing, recovering or BFP-ing. You ladies are all amazing and have given me a lot of strength xxxx

[bluewanderlust]

Hi, sounds like you have been through a lot this year. Just want to say the very best of luck xxx

[sunshineyellow in reply to bluewanderlust]

Thank you, hope you're doing ok. Stay strong! Xx

[Tugsgirl]

Wow. What a rollercoaster for you! Wishing you much luck with your fet 🍀 xx

[sunshineyellow in reply to Tugsgirl]

Thank you. Hope you're doing well (and Otto too!!!) xx

[Tugsgirl in reply to sunshineyellow]

He's doing great 👍🏻 xx

[Hormomalmess]

Good luck with your drug free cycle. It's much nicer that way and have just had our bfp following natural FET. Sending positive hugs your way xx

[sunshineyellow in reply to Hormomalmess]

Yay I love good news stories. Congratulations and hope everything's going well for you lady xx

[ClarabGlasgow]

Sorry to hear about your loss, I would have been just like you have had so many bfns that I don't even test any more the first sign of spotting is when my heart sinks. This is a good reminder that spotting may not always mean a bfn! Love how you call it the witch, perfect description e. Good luck for your FET, amazing that you have 4 embies the odds are surely on your side & as you say there's been so much good news on here lately that gives you great hope X

[sunshineyellow in reply to ClarabGlasgow]

Thanks for your message and good luck on your journey!!! X

[hannahi]

What a horrible roller coaster for you, really feel for you...take care of yourself xx

[sunshineyellow in reply to hannahi]

Thank you! Xx

[Cinderella5]

Oh how frustrating and upsetting! Sounds like you have a great positive mind for pushing forward and trying again though!! Not too long to go now!!xx

[sunshineyellow in reply to Cinderella5]

Thanks for your message and for replying after everything you're going through. Hope you're doing ok xxx

[Cinderella5 in reply to sunshineyellow]

You're welcome! We all know what it's like to have hard times and it's great we can all support each other at our lowest!! I'm ok, moving my plans forward with my next steps so which keeps me positive and busy!xx

[sunshineyellow in reply to Cinderella5]

You're right this forum is amazing and the ladies are such an inspiration.

It's so important to have a plan, I felt a lot better when I knew where were going next. Sending you hugs xx

[stephanienissim]

You are such a good writer and made me have a good laugh with the certainty of the 'witch' lol. Anyway, goodluck for your next transfer. xxxxxx