Joy and pain!

So had the awful two week wait. But somehow made it.... Happily it was BFP. I was so shocked. I was convinced not pregnant. And since then been extra careful about food and stuff. All the usual.

Well first scan today. Not so good news. The sac looked empty. There may be something but it may be too early to see. So back next week. It's extra painful because this is exactly what happened with my previous two pregnancies and we ended up going back and forth for sodding scans. Each time feeling worse.

I just don't know what we will do after this. I am not very optimistic at this point. It's been such a long and horrible journey since we fell pregnant the first time in 2011. And then again early 2012. And then suffering with endo and waiting years for someone to believe me and finally getting diagnosed and treated last year.

Now the ivf rollercoaster. I don't know how people have the strength to keep doing this. I am not sure that I do. Hats off to you all. And bless all the souls out there on this horrific journey. Xxxx

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  • Sorry you're having such a stressful time. It's awful when you know the best thing is to relax but you can't switch your mind off. I'll be praying your next scan will show a healthy little embryo. x

  • Thank you very much. Hopefully once I've had time to digest things might seem a bit positive again.

  • Sorry so to hear your in this position, it must be so stressful and worrying. Everything crossed for you xxx

  • Thanks button. I just wish I could switch my head off haha hopefully once digested things might seem a bit brighter. X

  • So sorry to hear this, I really hope it's just that they can't see anything but how awful for you having to wait to find out 😔 I also have endo and was fobbed off for many years, something I feel quite angry about now I'm 39 and have had 4 unsuccessful IVF cycles, so frustrating isn't it.

    Everything crossed for good news next week 🙏🏻 Xx

  • Thanks Georgina. I think I just needed a bit of a rant. I hope it's too early too. I have been reading and in fact I am not almost 7 weeks I am just on cusp of 5 weeks. And I read 7 wks was best time for your first scan so I don't understand why the clinic for us in so early. Anyway as soon as the consultant said 'you usually see something even now' my heart sank.

    Anyway I am so sorry to hear of your unsuccessful cycles. And about being fobbed off. Completely understand. It's frustrating and stressful. Much thanks for the luck. Time will tell I guess. X

  • Been where you are, it's so unfair and cruel. It's amazing how strong we all are. I've had 2 NHS ivf attempts and both ended in mc. Most recent oct last year, times a great healer and I'm certainly evidence of that tho I'm not going to lie it me tough x

  • Sending you lots of love. IVF couples rock with strength xx

  • Oh Im so sorry, I hope you get better news next week!xx

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