Caved and tested..

[Georgina78]

Hi ladies please don't shout at me but I've been spotting since Saturday so I ended up caving in this morning and doing a test. I shouldn't even have them in the house really, till the day before otd at least but I had a box leftover from my last cycle 😏

Anyway, I did a FRER test and it was positive but I've been spotting since Saturday and it's actually got slightly more last night & this morning, although it's definitely still only spotting and not actual period type bleeding. It's only when I wipe at the moment however it's gone from being only brown on Saturday afternoon & Sunday daytime, to having pinky/red streaks in it. It's also (so sorry tmi!) 'fleshy' & mucusy so I've no idea what that means.

I should be happy that there was a 2nd line but I'm just too damn scared, it feels like my period is coming and this has happened to me before (naturally) where I had a bfp then spotted and it was a bfn a few days later. There's just no way I'm celebrating yet and as my otd isn't till Friday it feels like it's going to be a very long week. I did so well last week, I don't know what the hell has happened to that 😩

Ps it's not the trigger shot as I tested to check that was gone mid-week last week and it was. I don't think there's any point ringing my clinic as they said try not to test early and don't be alarmed by spotting so I'll just feel silly and I don't think they'll do anything anyway. This just feels like having a chemical did before, whhhhyyyy so we do this to ourselves?! 😒 Xx

[Ro5ie]

Hi georgina ur not the 1st to test early and wont the last i did the same on my frozen cycle congratulations on getting the positive

i think the spotting is normal i do remember getting this on my 1st cycle and i cried so much with worry and my 14 month old son is now running round making a mess lol when is ur official test day? Xxx

[Georgina78 in reply to Ro5ie]

Thank you Ro5ie, I hope you're right but it's certainly good to hear a positive story. It just feels so familiar to before that doing the test hasn't eased my worries so bit of a waste of time really! Otd isn't till Friday so I'll just have to sit tight, I'm not testing again as it'll ruin my whole week if the line fades (it was already lighter than the other) and my hubby is off on Friday so I'll have his support xx

[Hidden]

I always test early but like you to get some control back over everything and prepare myself either way.

Massive congratulations on your positive, try not to let other cycles spoil your moment (easier said than done) hopefully the bleeding will settle down xxx

[Georgina78 in reply to Hidden]

Thanks button, I know it could go differently, I think my brain is now just programmed to expect the worst. I have struggled with that during IVF. Nice to know I'm not the only one but I was so calm last week & determined not to! We should be given something safe to take during the 2ww that just relaxes us and makes it fly by!

Hope you're ok xx

[Hidden in reply to Georgina78]

I know what you mean and I think when you have been through it a few times and not with positive outcomes it's our way of protecting ourselves. Hoping and praying that this is your one xxx

[Georgina78 in reply to Hidden]

Definitely 🙁 Thank you xx

[WeeMrsH]

Everything crossed this is your time 🤞🏼💗

[Georgina78 in reply to WeeMrsH]

Thanks Hun, not all that hopeful but just going to try and keep busy this week and not test again till Friday.

How are you feeling today? Xx

[WeeMrsH in reply to Georgina78]

Pretty rubbish if I'm honest. Painful cramping through the night. At clinic now for blood test but this is just a formality. Feel daft for coming but know they would say I had to.

Stay strong this really could be all good signs for you xxx

[Georgina78 in reply to WeeMrsH]

Oh Hun I'm so sorry, I really know how it feels and it sucks big time xxx

[emu2016]

I have no effing idea how I haven't tested yet. Keep that hoping that the second line will stay xx

[Georgina78 in reply to emu2016]

You're a better woman than me emu! Good luck for tomorrow xx

[Cinderella5]

Hey, well nobody has shouted at you! I think what you have done is fairly normal going by other posts on here. Most people have a wee sneaky test, for some reason we think it'll make us feel better! Just all part of the craziness of the 2ww! Ha ha ha Hang on in there, its only spotting and will settle down!xx

[Georgina78 in reply to Cinderella5]

Thanks Cinderella, good to hear I'm not alone in testing early! Yeah it's weird, what do we think we're trying to achieve 🙄 Hopefully it will settle, thank you xxx

[minerva17]

Georgina78, try to calm down. I can imagine how it feels and no words could be that comforting to make you sure of your success. But you should try to stay strong and don't lose faith. look, your doctor warned you about possible spotting and asked you not to test early, so you just don't need to trust any results whether positive or negative till the otd. It's better say, of course and I understand that you need someone to share your concerns but try to forget your previous experience and take this situation as a new one. Hold on girl! I'm waiting for your positive update on Friday!xx

[Georgina78 in reply to minerva17]

Thanks so much minerva, I needed that! You're right it is a new situation, I'm going to keep busy this week now and no more tests till Friday. My hubby also has the day off to I'll have his support if it isn't good news. Thank you 😘

[minerva17 in reply to Georgina78]

I hope that keeping yourself busy will be good for you. I understand that your thoughts still will be with you but at least not all the time. I'm sure your husband is very supportive now and we are here to help you as well. Be patient dear. Cheer up

[Se99]

It's good news! Try to stay positive x

[Georgina78 in reply to Se99]

Thanks Hun, I'll try! Going to keep busy & hopefully occupied 🙏🏻 Xx

[CountryCat]

EVERYTHING is firmly crossed for you and a strong positive on Friday! I understand your reluctance to 'feel happy' just yet, but wanted to say congratulations anyway and I really hope all is well xx

[Georgina78 in reply to CountryCat]

Thanks so much CountryCat, I do too! 😘 Xx

[Rainbow_86]

It sounds very hopeful to me!!! Looking forward to congratulating you on Friday..sending lots of baby dust your way xxx

[Georgina78 in reply to Rainbow_86]

Thanks so much Rainbow 😘 Xx

[7AVA]

Everything crossed for you - until then, listen to some IVF hypnotherapy to visualise positive things happening! Xx

[Georgina78 in reply to 7AVA]

Thanks 7AVA xx

[tiger-cub]

Congratulations

Don't worry many of us cave in

U r not alone

I think I would do d same in next 5 th cycle transfer.

[Georgina78 in reply to tiger-cub]

Thanks tiger-cub, glad to know I'm not alone! x

[sanj76]

Great news Georgina...I hope and pray all continues to go well for you.... you've been through one heck of a journey and want you to be blessed, your inner strength is there to be admired for sure

[Georgina78 in reply to sanj76]

Aw thank you so much sanj that's a lovely thing to say x

[Hidden]

Wonderful news- congratulations. Wil keep my fingers crossed that the pregnancy progresses well Good luck lovely x x x

[Georgina78 in reply to Hidden]

Thanks so much jess, hopefully 🙏🏻 Xx

[Flossy85]

Congratulations sounds all positive to me, I always cave early too. Keeping hope that all progresses well for you. Fingers crossed Xxx ❤😊

[Georgina78 in reply to Flossy85]

Thanks Flossy, I'd be thrilled & jumping for joy if this hadn't happened before, just worried about history repeating itself 😕 Xx

[Flossy85 in reply to Georgina78]

Aww it's awful when you can't enjoy your good news. It's bound to be weighing on your mind, try not to compare to previous and focus on what could be. Nice positive thoughts to keep you stress free for your little bean. Keeping my fingers crossed for your little fighter xx ❤❤

[Georgina78 in reply to Flossy85]

Yeah it sucks really but I've not given up, just hope Friday comes quickly! Thanks flossy xx

[Flossy85 in reply to Georgina78]

That's good to hear, remember us ivf ladies are made of strong stuff 😊 we are all rooting for your little bean. I know it's hard not to worry when you have came so far. Sending big hugs. Hoping for Friday to fly in too as will be having final tracking scan, really uncomfortable now. Here's to good news all round Friday xx ❤

[Georgina78 in reply to Flossy85]

Thanks so much Flossy 😘 Hope your scan goes well, it's rubbish feeling like that on the meds xx

[Flossy85 in reply to Georgina78]

Thank you, oh I know feeling absolutely rotten. Keep hoping xx

[Lizzielizzielizzie]

I think all you can do is try to keep busy, to help the week pass. Will be thinking of you xx

[Georgina78 in reply to Lizzielizzielizzie]

Thanks Lizzie, I am busy till Friday so that should help xx

[Hidden]

I always tested early and would again every time.

I'm sure everything will still be "positive" come Friday love. Looking forward to seeing your confirmation post xx

[Georgina78 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you, really hoping you're right! Xx

[Tugsgirl]

I really hope I'm seeing a confirmation post for you on Friday 🤞 xx

[Georgina78 in reply to Tugsgirl]

Thanks Hun xx

[WeeMrsH]

When is your OTD Georgina? I can't remember... x

[Georgina78 in reply to WeeMrsH]

Hey, it's Friday..not holding out much hope though, I'm still spotting (day 5 of it now) and now there's some pinky/red as well as brown. I've resisted testing again as I know it'll only ruin the next couple of days and my hubby is off Friday too. At least if I don't I can still bury my head in the sand 😕

How's things going for you Hun, are you still bleeding? 😢Xx

[WeeMrsH in reply to Georgina78]

I think you're right to wait. Sending you so many happy thoughts for success. xx

[Georgina78 in reply to WeeMrsH]

Thanks Hun, it's not looking good. I've just had bright red blood so I think this is probably the start of my period, I'll just see how the rest of the day goes but I've pretty much given up hope now. It sucks doesn't it 😢

Hope you're ok lovely xx

[minerva17 in reply to Georgina78]

Hang on! I hope you still have a chance...Praying for you xx

[Georgina78 in reply to minerva17]

Thanks Minerva, I'm trying to tell myself it might be that one of the embryos hasn't made it but perhaps the other has but I'm not convinced. I'll still wait till Friday but I suspect my period will give me the news anyway. Thank you xx

[WeeMrsH in reply to Georgina78]

Could be just one of your little ones. The other could be snug as a bug in a rug 😍

Don't give up yet xx

[Georgina78 in reply to WeeMrsH]

I know I'm trying to convince myself of that, although I don't know much about it/how likely that is. Thanks WeeMrsH 😘 Xx