It's arrived

[emu2016]

The box of drugs arrived this morning. On my profile is the reaction I had to the last time the box arrived for our cycle in July.

The sense of it being real. Being excited. Being scared. Trying to work out what was a good room for temperature and what wasn't before promptly putting it all in the fridge.

This time I only checked it once. This time there wasn't a lonely tear. I felt like a machine checking, counting, repacking and putting to one side.

This box marks another stage for me. It represents the beginning of a journey I never in my wildest dreams thought I'd make. This box represents how proud I am of me. How proud we all should be for being brave and facing challenges like this - sometimes more than once.

This box definitely contains a sharp bin that I repeatedly think looks like a Duplo house.

I'm ready. I am. I'm scared. I'm not.*

*maybe a bit.

[DianeArnold]

Hi emu2016. Oh my goodness me! It is all so daunting and so real! Still, it is here now, and a wonderful chance to have the family you so yearn for. Obviously I do hope that the cycle runs as smoothly as it can for you, and of course for success this time. Good luck and I shall be thinking of you - and your little "Duplo" house! Diane

[emu2016 in reply to DianeArnold]

Thanks Diane. Still a couple of weeks until injections. Good job because it's totally different this time! It would be amazing if all the little bottles were the same this time! Fingers crossed! x

[DianeArnold in reply to emu2016]

Hi emu2016. If you had problems with injecting before, try and melt an ice cube on the spot before injecting - helps to numb the area. I suppose at least you have a couple of weeks to suss it all out! Good luck! Diane

[Leesalou]

When do you start ?

It's Changed from my last time I had a tiny boring yellow bin lol.

Good luck with your cycle xx

[emu2016 in reply to Leesalou]

Early April. About 2 and half weeks away... I had two bins last time. And I didn't have to pay! x

[Leesalou in reply to emu2016]

I had private late time so had to pay for all my meds,

My 2nd cycle which I'm hoping to start April too, is NHS funding, if you don't mind me asking do you have to pay for the drugs required like a prescription fee or is it more or it is free? I don't mind either way just wondering as all different from private, xx

[emu2016 in reply to Leesalou]

This is a private funded cycle... I pay for all my scans and meds etc. Feel free to ask questions! xx

[Leesalou in reply to emu2016]

I had that the first cycle private and paid for it all, the meds was expensive ,

it's the NHS funded one I wanted to know about the meds as I've been luckily funded this time through NHS xx

[emu2016 in reply to Leesalou]

Sorry! Nope... all free! Didn't spend a penny! xx

[emu2016 in reply to Leesalou]

Except for parking at the hospital that nearly bankrupted us! x

[Hidden]

I've just read your post from last time, you write so beautifully, I could almost picture you and your husband sat there working through the box together! Glad to hear that this time you're feeling proud of yourself, and so you should be.

Looking forward to following your journey, particularly given it looks like we'll be starting so close to each other. Now hoping I get a duplo house too!!

[emu2016 in reply to Hidden]

Awww thank you MrsB76. I love your name. I'm a MrsB and my hubby was born 76! Cycle buddies! xx

[Rainbow_86]

Good luck.... seeing that picture makes me wonder how I will feel when it comes round to our turn! It's so scarey yet exciting. I am inspired by so many stories on here. I wish you all the best luck and baby dust and looking forward to hearing your positive result xxxxxx

[emu2016 in reply to Rainbow_86]

Thank you Rainbow! It's an odd feeling. And that's the first time someone's wished me baby dust in a while - feels lovely too! xx

[Rainbow_86 in reply to emu2016]

Aww well I am glad it made you feel lovely, here's some more baby dust just to make sure 😉! It must be very overwhelming, but you can do this!! Xxxxxx

[Sprinkles86]

That massive box 🙈It's a little daunting isn't it?! Good luck for your treatment lovely xxx

[emu2016 in reply to Sprinkles86]

It's smaller than last time too! x

[Aimaim77]

You should be proud of yourself Hun. Sounds like you have a good frame of mind and positive attitude. Hope this is your time xxx

[emu2016 in reply to Aimaim77]

Thanks lovely! How's you? x

[Hidden]

Good luck mine are arriving next week yikes x

[emu2016 in reply to Hidden]

Yey! x

[bibi_16]

Im absolutely terrified after seeeing this image of drugs. Im waiting to have ivf. Just so scared and i havent even started yet dont k ow how im gona cope honestly. If im likethis by just looking at the drugs i really dont know how it will be when i actually start using them. Your bery brave cookie.xxz

[emu2016 in reply to bibi_16]

You'll cope. You're made of strong stuff! Your partner is there... and on your first go you take in needles and drugs and the nurses go through everything with you! You're not alone keep reminding yourself why you're doing it. Have you considered meditation? X

[bibi_16 in reply to emu2016]

Hey thanks for the encouragement. No i habe npt thought about meditation but its something i can look into. Thanks for the tip.xxx

[72cloud9]

Best of luck this cycle sweetie xxx

[emu2016 in reply to 72cloud9]

Thank you. Fingers crossed that this route is more successful. How's you doing? xx

[72cloud9 in reply to emu2016]

Looks like I'm going back in may to have our lonesome last Frostie transferred.can only hope & pray this ones got what it takes xxx

[emu2016 in reply to 72cloud9]

Fingers crossed! 🤞🏻 Just keep those toes crossed too. xx

[Hidden]

I had all my drugs delivered yesterday too. What a shock - first timer over here 😏 Made me freak out looking at it all. So I took myself outside for a few minutes, came back and unpacked it all. Put the ones in the fridges and stored the others away. Once I'd calmed down I was gazing at them with absolute amazement thinking wow all of this lot could actually end up giving me my dream- of being a mum! How amazing would that be!!😍 Here's to the next few weeks. Best of luck to you too xoxox

[emu2016 in reply to Hidden]

A Your reply made me think of my first time receiving. It is daunting. But you'll soon settle in. I'll bet you sneak in a few more times to look at them again and again! Good luck! xx

[Hidden in reply to emu2016]

Very daunting but so exciting too! I can't wait to get this journey actually started 😊 I have already had another sneak this morning! Haha. When do you start? I've still got another few weeks to wait yet 😤 xx

[emu2016 in reply to Hidden]

About 6 April. 5 weeks of injecting! 🙄 you? x

[Hidden in reply to emu2016]

Oh wow! I've got to wait for a scan appointent to come through still but have the 26th April as my start date at the moment 😊 xx

[emu2016 in reply to Hidden]

Excellent. Well you stay in touch! I'm sure you'll come across others starting at the same time as you. But happy to answer any questions and listen to worries in the meantime! x

[Hidden in reply to emu2016]

Thanks very much! So sweet 😊 Fingers crossed everything goes amazingly for you ❤ xox

[Hidden]

Mine arrived on Friday... it's our 4th round this time I don't know what to feel. Excited nervous scared all the emotions we can possibly feel. We starting in few weeks too. Wishing you lots of luck xxx

[emu2016 in reply to Hidden]

Good luck HelenLou. Seems so long ago since I got this delivery now. And in a couple of weeks I’ll have a delivery for our. Exit round. Fingers crossed for you xx

[oharal]

You've got this!!! Good luck xxx

[emu2016 in reply to oharal]

Drugs not quite here yet! This is an old post... but I’m sure I’ve got it when they get here!

[Hidden]

Good luck with your next cycle! Xx

[emu2016 in reply to Hidden]

Drugs not quite here yet! This is an old post... but thanks for the luck... I’ll definitely need it! x

[Hidden]

You should be sooo proud of yourself. It's such a huge thing mentally and physically. Xxx

[Birdboy1]

You almost made me cry. We are strong and we should be very proud of each and every step we make in this process as my god it’s a tough old road. Good luck with your cycle xx