so scared of the future but will try and be positive! Faint bfp

[Mandy_K]

I am in my 6th ivf cycle. I have been writing on here on and off. More off recently. I had a twin pregnancy miscarriage last year. I thought about giving up ivf altogether but given I actually managed to get pregnant and had not before, I know I would regret not trying once again. I went on the long protocol again and I took a pregnancy test this morning. About 4 days earlier than I am supposed to. I am 8 days past 5 day transfer so way early. I just could not help it. think it is a faint Line? However I don't want to get my hopes up. I have been so obsessed with this whole journey. I read other advice on here and I know i must stay positive. I know I should take each day has it comes. Thank you to everyone on this forum. Even when things have not gone their way, many still write on here with best wishes for everyone else. I, on the other hand, retreat and withdraw altogether . However I am going to think differently this time, be positive and take each day as it comes. I know I have to and I will. I have to remember if it is meant to be, it will happen. Hopefully this little bit of advice to myself will help others too. I feel I have given little to this forum yet got so much back from the experiences I read about. Thank you to everyone. Xx

[Hidden]

That's a very strong line for such an early test, it's so tough as ivf never lets you fully enjoy the moments as fear grips hold but try and take one day at a time and look how much you have achieved over the years. Sending lots of love xxx

[Mandy_K in reply to Hidden]

thank you so much. Yes you are right ivf never lets you enjoy. It can be a hugely cruel journey. I am just going to try and take it easy. It is people like you and momma bear and many others who I was referring to in my post earlier. Even with you own personal journeys, you still find time to write on here and encourage others. Thank you xx

[MommaBear16]

Sending cautious congratulations as I know you want to stay hopeful but balanced at this stage. I think it's a very good sign and I pray that everything continues to go well. I am so sorry for you losses, this whole process is so cruel. Just remember that the human body is an amazing thing. Many, many women miscarry their first pregnancy and go on to have healthy pregnancies the second time around. I really hope this is the case for you. Sending love x x x

[Mandy_K in reply to MommaBear16]

thank you momma bear. As I said to button 123 it is people like you and many others who I was referring to in my post earlier. You guys are amazing. Thank you. X

[Hidden]

Congratulations to you amazing news! Wishing you the very best with the rest of your pregnancy. Enjoy. 😍

[Mandy_K]

thank you sp much xx

[Sunshine09]

Good luck that certainly looks a bfp xx

[vic77]

That looks good to me however I understand how you feel. So sorry for your losses and I have everything crossed this is your time xxxx

[Mandy_K in reply to vic77]

thank you x

[Leesalou]

Sending lots of love and baby dust, fingers cross for a bfp on your actual test day,

Try to keep positive x

[Mandy_K]

thank you. I will try xx

[Tugsgirl]

That's a lovely second line 😊 Congratulations and wishing you so much luck and best wishes x

[Amanda86]

Congratulations! Definitely a strong second line for being 4 days early 😊 xxx

[Hollibob]

Looking great for an early test

[emu2016]

Positive settled (with a dollop of caution) will help. Here's hoping and wishing the line gets darker and stronger for you xx

[emmab178]

That's a line! Congratulations x

[Buffy21]

Yayyy that's a second line. It's probably just 'cos it's early. Do another one in a few days. Of course you are worried and apprensive due to your past experiences. So sorry to hear about those. But you are right in being positives. I love this forum but I think sometimes there can be a tendency to scare eachother with fear of unknown. Just think this will be different to last time. Fresh start, new thinking. Why doubt it be successful?I find yoga very healing for the mind too.

All the best 🍀💗xx

[Nesfin]

That line is not faint but very clear to me! So cautious congrats 😘 I do however perfectly understand how you feel. This is my second pregnancy after a mc and I'm fighting demons all the time. This is not to say that I wouldn't be happy but with the past it comes at a heavy cost. We just have to take each day as it comes, deal with whatever is thrown our way and pray it will all be worth it. I don't think the pain will ever be forgotten but we need to learn to manage the fear, wariness and - weirdly enough - the good news. Open up and keep sharing, it will help, anything is harder when you retrieve to that dark place inside your head. I've done it too many times. I send you lots of hugs and courage, hope to see you posting more! xoxo