Loosing hope

Yesterday was the first day out of the 2ww with no symptoms so I began to feel relaxed. Did a little house work got a food shop in but

this morning I've woken up with period like cramps & a little brown spotting when I wipe (sorry if tmi). My period is due in a few days time so I just feel like my body is gearing up for it.

Naturally this has made me feel incredibly upset, like it's all over. My DH comforted me before going to work & we're trying to remain positive but it's so hard.

In the past I've had 2 BFP & then both times bleed a few days after so I discovered I had chemical pregnancies. Therefore I get incredibly anxious that if I do get a BFP again i will be over the moon but I expect a period to happen & for it to all be over again so all the hurt comes back.

I'm trying so hard to remain positive as I've not actually taken any tests yet & I had what I thought was implantation spotting on 1dp 5dt. It was also accompanied by a different type of cramping to period cramps. It felt like my body was trying to do something but now I just feel so sad that it could be all over again.

I think the next few days will feel long & be emotional. I just hope & pray this still works.πŸ˜ͺ

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  • Morning Hun I know Is easy to say then done but try to keep your self busy for this another few days till your official test day . I'm not a expert but if u got just spotting without bleeding that can be good sign. I had over year ago my first cycle and didn't work . At that time I didn't have any symptoms at all none no cramps no sore breast nothing ...I test two or three days early and was negative . When I finish my last progesteron my period come day after . This time was diferent ... diferent drugs and diferent clinic . Hun u had your two BFP before in each of them and now is there anything that feel diferent about ? Please don't Give up yet ...try to keep your self busy maybe go to see friends that will keep your mind busy . When is your official test day Hun ?xx

  • Thanks for the reply Olivia. I haven't felt anything different to last time other than last time I had one night early on of strong painful cramps. This time is was softer but lasted longer. Now I'm getting period like cramps again & noticed a light pink tinge when I wipe. I'm going to rest today as I think I over did things yesterday. Not sure when to test as I was just told 2 weeks. Really hope this is just part of it & not my dream ending again. Really appreciate u getting back to me xx

  • I agree with Olivia, could well be a breakthrough implantation bleed as the bean nestles in and gets comfy 😊

    Try not to get disheartened Hun there's so many ladies on here who have had varying symptoms in the 2ww and some had none and still came out with a BFP

    Our bodies can play really mean tricks on us when we're ttc so try not to scrutinise every symptom - I know that's easier said than done!!

    When is official test day?

    πŸ™πŸ™πŸ™ it's a sticky one for you β€οΈβ€οΈβ€οΈπŸ€πŸ€πŸ€

  • Thanks so much honey. Thank goodness I have u all to talk to, it really does mean the world to me to have this forum.

    Your right, I just tend to panic as a default because of my past experiences.

    Am going to rest today as I over did things yesterday.

    I wasn't told an OTD just that I needed to wait 2 weeks or for my period to come or not come. 😁

    I'm thinking of testing Saturday or Sunday as I had my transfer last Monday.xx

  • Hi Hun me again I had my ET on 3 Sep and they told me to test on 14 Sep (11 days ) I had 5day blastocyst . Yeh if I was u I will do test Friday Saturday . I pray Hun for you and your little one πŸ˜ƒπŸ˜ƒπŸ€πŸ€πŸ€πŸ€πŸ™πŸ™πŸ™

  • Thanks so much Olivia. I think I will test Saturday morning if I haven't got my period by then. I just hope so so much that this is just a little implantation movement. Xx

  • I know how you feel as I have had a chemical in the past and it's so cruel, try and keep faith and hopefully you will get your BFP to keep. I will be on my 3rd 2ww soon so I will be exactly the same xxx

  • Thanks Button-123 I'm sorry you had to experience that as well, it is just so awful & cruel is the perfect way to describe it. It just really feels like I'm getting my period today but let's see what happens over the next few days.

    I hope ur next 2ww isn't so painful, when is your transfer? X

  • Aww got everything crossed for youπŸ™πŸΌπŸ™πŸΌ

    I have EC on Friday so not sure of transfer yet, this is our last attempt with my own eggs before we move on to DE just hoping its 3rd time lucky xxx

  • Thank u so much.

    I really hope Friday goes well for u, please let me know how it goes. How u feeling about it all? X

  • I feel a mix of excitement and dread, I have low amh so not got loads or the best quality eggs but figured if it doesn't work at least I have give it a good go with my own eggs before moving on to DE x

  • Absolutely. I feel a bit like that with all this to be honest. Give IVF a try before adoption & at least then I know I tried. Keep us posted with it all. Sending a virtual hug 😊 & lots of luck πŸ€πŸ€πŸ€

  • Aw it's been great talking to you and really hoping everything works out for you. Keep in touch xxx

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