After 2 months of treatment, medication and the emotional stress of it all, today was test day. I was absolutely dreading it and couldn't sleep, then the 3 minute wait and sadly it was another fail.
I've had 4 rounds of treatment altogether, 3 with IUI using my own eggs and 1 with donor egg and sperm. I've felt so lost today and don't want to give up on the idea of being a mum but at £7000 for 1 try it's a lot of money to keep dishing out. Words fail me as to how I'm feeling right now. I've decided to give my body a break from the medication, emotional stress and money for a while and to think about it again next year, once I've helped my mum to move and then I can feel more settled.
I guess though, I haven't got many options available to me; either I give another £7000 to it (making that £12,000), or think about adoption/fostering - I'd only be able to do this if I had an allowance as I wouldn't be able to afford a 2 bed property otherwise on my own. Even though I think fostering is a great thing to do, not sure how I feel as they wouldn't be my own and I would have to give them back.
Life can feel so unfair at times x