I knew this cycle would be emotional, in actual fact they all have! Using donor eggs and sperm you think your chances are that much higher, however it all comes down to the grading of them and how they take which is completely out of your hands.
Today I had my transfer and 2 little embies are on board now, I guess they use 2 because they aren't quite top notch quality and one of the highest graded embryos (10) was showing signs of some fragmentation and the other isn't quite as high graded.
It's all in the lap of the gods now and if the other remaining embryos (3) don't reach a high enough grade then they won't be allowed to be frozen so I feel it puts a lot of pressure on the ones I've got to take.
Nothing can take away that feeling of wanting to be a mum but how you come to terms with not being able to be one, I don't know.
For now it's trying to get through the 2ww x