Yesterday was our OTD (14dp5dt) and the bloods confirmed it's a BFN this time for us. I tested 11dp5dt on Sunday at home and had 2 x BFN so knew what to expect. 😝
We're obviously gutted but have had time to let it sink in and am pleased we tested early (but allowed time for HCG to get out my system) as I knew something was wrong with the fact I'd been bleeding etc. When it comes to testing make sure you're doing it/not doing it for your own reasons as it really is a personal choice and there is no right or wrong answer but we're pleased we tested early as it gave us time to accept it before asking lots of questions at the clinic.
We did everything we could but it just wasn't our time this time. The first cycle has given us lots of info and lessons learned for next time. My stims will be upped next time as I went to day 15 of stims and just made it took EC which collected 9 eggs and 4 became embryos. We had 1 embryo get to blastocyst so no frozen but at least we know we can produce an embie and get to ET. We're told the fact it was a BFN was just bad luck rather than anything else but we're looking into tests etc.
We have a follow up on 11 April and I'll be starting the pill to regulate my period and hopefully start stims on cycle 2 about a month after that. I have a big list of questions already📑 which the clinic answered some of yesterday. We are both going to live life ⛷🏄🏇🏋a little more for a couple of weeks (I had a glass of wine and a couple of cocktails last night...they were gooooood!!! 🍷🍸🍸) and have started planning a holiday 🌞⛵✈ for the summer and we are selling my "let out" flat in April so have lots to keep us busy.
I have already had a little cry and let things out...I'm sure it isn't the end of that but I'm a planner and I need to plan things to have some sort of control over it all.... I'm sure some of you ladies understands this! 😊 This and being "positive" is my way of coping. 💪👍
It's so unfair how we all put so much time and emotion (put our bodies through hell) 🐳 into IVF and get a BFN 😝😝😝 but it's life.... and we just have to get back on that horse.... keep the faith☝ and don't give up. My hub has been absolutely amazing💕 and supported me through everything. We're closer than ever and it had strangely made us appreciate things more. I'm also looking forward to having a non bloated belly 🐳, feeling attractive again and giving my body a rest for a little while and then we'll hit it hard when the time comes!
Good luck everyone. Keep smiling and don't give up. Wishing us all lots of strength, hope and willpower.....This is not the end!!!