OTD today (12dp5dt) and it's the dreaded but expected BFN.... 😝🤔😫☹️🤯😬😡😱🤬

[Kat9lives]

Well as expected... After 4 consecutive BFN HPTs (8dp,9dp,10dp and 11dp5dt with a FET) we had our OTD and got the blood results back... And it's a BFN. BIG FAT NEGATIVE. GRRRRR.

I'm ok, and am so glad I tested early as I was prepared but feel like today has helped give a bit of closure to the limbo of the 2ww.

Just poured a LARGE glass of wine 🍷and will take stock and think about future plans tomorrow. (We are going to try for a 4th cycle.. but fresh ICSI because we lost all 3 frosties this cycle). But for now, I'm going to hold my hubby's hand and appreciate what we have (and we are very lucky to have our little girl who is currently singing Twinkle twinkle in her cot upstairs).

This is a big old hard slog for us all, but we will get there, one way or another. Best of luck to you all, and keep positive and keep the faith.

Thanks to everyone who has been so lovely and supportive on here.

Kat xx 🍀🤞🍀🤞🍀🤞🍀🤞🍀

[CC2018]

Sorry about your negative but you have an amazing attitude! I hope you get your 2nd baby one day. Enjoy the wine xx

[Kat9lives in reply to CC2018]

Aww thank you CC2018 . The wine tastes good! Hope you're doing well. Xx

[Niki_B]

Oh hun I'm so sorry for your BFN 😢 they are just rubbish! I'm really glad you have a beautiful little girl and how cute twinkle twinkle little star 😍 you enjoy that wine...I know I will be having a couple bottles should I get bad news again! Been a few months since i had a wine. Look after yourself, and give hubby a big squeeze and hopefully you can move forward when you are ready. Sending much love to you both 💕💕 xxx

[Kat9lives in reply to Niki_B]

Thanks lovely, that's kind of you to say. Are you still in your 2ww limbo? Wishing you the best of luck 🍀🍀🍀 xx

[Niki_B in reply to Kat9lives]

Yes I am 🙈 only 3dpt already going nuts! Thank you very much 💕🤞🍀 xxx

[KittyK]

We've in exactly the same boat as you. Not sure we can realistically do this again (financially) so I'm stilll sort of numb? Just got the bleed a couple of days ago so will take a few months to clear our heads and regroup I think. So sorry to hear it wasn't a positive I was so hoping I'd see a + post. Like you we are so lucky to have our daughter, I just hope one day somehow I can give her a brother or sister to grow up with. Best wishes to you and your hubby xxxx

[Kat9lives in reply to KittyK]

Aww KittyK xxxx I'm so sorry, and hope you're taking care of yourself. We are so lucky to have our daughters, not that it stops the "want" for a sibling for them. Taking some time out to clear your heads sounds like a good plan. We have arranged our follow up in April and we'll take it from them. I'm waiting for my bleed (started spotting but stopped the pessaries tonight)... And whilst it's rubbish, I'm sort of looking forward to getting it out of the way and feeling "cleared out" (tmi!!). Keep in touch won't you xxx

[Hollibob]

Sorry it didn’t work this time, but glad you still have some fight in you x

[Kat9lives in reply to Hollibob]

Thanks. Yes I'm not ready to give up yet! Xx

[Hidden]

Really sorry to read this. Sending you both big hugs xx

[Kat9lives in reply to Hidden]

Thanks lovely xx

[Hidden]

Really sorry to hear this. Take care of yourselves xx

[Kat9lives in reply to Hidden]

Thankyou xx

[WannaBMum]

Sorry to hear that you got a negative result, your positive attitude is so encouraging. Good luck for your next cycle and baby #2. X

[Kat9lives in reply to WannaBMum]

Thanks so much lovely xx

[Debrakay1704]

You are an inspiration, xxxxxxxx

[Kat9lives in reply to Debrakay1704]

Aww thank you! Xx

[Foodie23]

Thinking of you Kat. I’m so sorry it didn’t work for you this time. 🤗

I’m glad you’ve taken time to appreciate what you do have. It’s so easy to get stuck on what we want in this process. I know for me, I had to accept my life as it was in order to get through this process. For me it was the only way. I didn’t want to loose sight of the beauty right in front of me.

I hope your dream of another child comes true! It’s great you’re feeling OK right now, but it’s ok to have rough days and to be sad too. This process is so hard. I’m sure it’s making us all stronger though. Xx