In now in year 2 of Ivf. Im 38 with the fantastic unexplained fertility title.
First cycle cancelled as estridiol went through the roof.
Second cycle got 16 eggs, 15 fertilised. Then on day 3 only 4 viable and poor quality. 2 implanted, 2 didn't make it to freezing.
Spent 4 months feeling like crap between bad ohss and believing it is all my fault via my eggs are crap.
Third cycle did diet like everyone, no white sugar, no chocolate, no caffeine, acupuncture etc. Then had a mega panic attack during EC so only got 8 eggs, the rest left in. Given injection to stop ohss but meant all to be frozen.
Gutted thinking the quality is bad, won't freeze, won't defrost etc etc.
Outcome all 8 fertilised, 6 valid. One great quality, 3 good quality, 2 OK.
All frozen day 2, apparently they were great on cycle 2 but stopped developing as they should day 3 that it's not the quality.
The day if the FET doesn't work they'll do more tests on hubby ( easier than on me apparently less invasive)
I'm dreading going into surgery again, dreading waiting 2 weeks, dreading the twinges, the pains, the awful realisation that it hasn't worked
Where do you girls get the inner strength to carry on time and time again.
I'm scared I'll end up depressed again and this time there's no way out.
I've decided to give it til December then accept whatever.
Please, I'm so so so sick of all this, I'll be a great mummy. My cool kid will be loved by mummy and daddy, wanted more than anything.
But it terrifies me to have to accept that we are not meant to give it love to a cool kid, that we will be OK just the two of us.
Please ladies, anyone had luck with FET and any ideas how to cope xx
Thanks in advance, baby dust to all xx