The highs and the lows, round 2 here we go . . .

[Hannah143]

The last time I posted I felt pretty dam hopeless and I want to thank those that helped to pick me back up again and give me sound advice. I am currently taking 6 weeks off between jobs and using the time to focus on me. So many of you encouraged me to look into Accupuncture and I've now signed up and have my first session tomorrow morning. Thank you, it's worth giving it a go.

Yesterday was a big day for my husband and I, we had our follow up appt with the NHS to discuss why our first attempt didn't work and by coincidence yesterday was my day 2, and I started my GonalF 300iu injections for our second round of IVF this time privately.

I wanted to share with you my thoughts from my NHS consultation as I left there feeling well informed. I think this forum has helped to educate me and has allowed me to fill in some of the blanks and learn from you all. We went through the journey step by step and discussed my results from FSH and AMH tests right at the beginning all the way through to the BFN result and the end. It was a very useful chat and confirmed what I kinda already knew but I could also ask the challenging questions about different drugs, levels, recommended things to eat, drink, etc. It's only from this forum have I gathered a deeper understanding of the process and the treatment and although it didn't work the first time around I left feeling informed and hopeful. They gave me costs of going privately with them, and surprisingly it's not vastly different from my private clinic.

So we go into our second round, less frightened, more informed and educated and more hopeful. If al goes to plan I'll be in for egg collection Friday 15th or Sat 16th.

They say this process is full of highs and lows and they are not wrong! One day you can be so down and the next more hopeful and positive.

Sending you all luck and love on your journeys and thank you for your support.

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Xx

[EmBlazes]

Good luck Hannah! I, too, felt much better informed the second time around. The dietary advice I got from my acupuncturist was very valuable and I felt like I was in far better control of the situation. I hope that continues to be the case for you this time. Be gentle with yourself and try to stay positive XX

[Hopeful1982]

Glad to hear you sounding more positive. Good luck with your cycle x

[Parentsofangels]

I've started menopur 225 today, so cross fingers our egg retrieval will be 23/25th Jan. 2nd time for us too and I'm petrified after last time, but hopeful. Lots of best wishes to you xxx

[Hannah143 in reply to Parentsofangels]

Good luck with your second cycle, how are you getting on?

I have my last scan tomorrow with ec on Friday if all goes to plan xx

[Parentsofangels in reply to Hannah143]

Will have everything crossed for you! It's ok. Scan was ok Monday, started drugs same day. Menopur hurts bit more than gonal f that I had last time, but in the grand scheme of things it's not the worst thing in the world. Headaches and tired, emotional but to be honest that is probably just me rather than the drugs. The drugs last time didn't effect my moods at all really, guess this time the grief and nerves are just to be expected I guess. Just wish I could be happier or more excited like I was before. How are you doing, emotionally and physically of course it's draining isn't it, how are you feeling today? Xxx

[Hannah143 in reply to Parentsofangels]

Thank you. My egg collection went well today.

This time round i haven't had any emotional side effects compared to last time. Last time i took Menopur and this time Gonal F, the other way around to you. I wonder if Menopur has more side effects?

I've much calmer and relaxed this time around, I think it's because i know what's coming, so it's all less frightening this time around.

I've been doing yoga, meditation and acupuncture this time round so all round I feel more chilled and more positive.

I'm not as excited either but I wonder if that's self preservation after a failed first attempt.

Try not to be too hard on yourself, it's great how far you've come and you're nearly through it. Sending you big hugs and positive thoughts xx

[Parentsofangels in reply to Hannah143]

Really wondering if the menopur is the difference here because each day is getting worse, just had a complete melt down over things I really shouldn't have, but I still feel really sad about it. Really hard to tell with it being all so linked in with our daughter we lost last year, but I'm starting to think this isn't all grief. My ovaries are starting to ache and twinge too, which I do remember last time, but also brings back some not to happy memories so empathises the fear a bit. I know what's coming so felt more prepared in that sense, but also more aware the risks so catch twenty two I guess. I'm doing acupuncture and Bache remedies from a lady who was a midwife for 30yrs, so feel pretty confident in her abilities. Glad all went well for you hun, mine was horrid last time, so hoping a more gentle situation this time but if not at least I'll know what to expect. Or expected to be next Friday x

[Hannah143 in reply to Parentsofangels]

Sending you big hugs and positive vibes to you xxx