May 29th 2015 changed my life and I still can't recover completely from the devastating news of my failed IVF attempt. Went through a clomid cycle and my husband and I decided that for timing purposes we shouldn't waste time and jumped into IVF. To my dismay, it didn't result the way I hoped and planned for. Months later, I am still negative, angry, mad and sad all together. Yes, the pain gets better as I am not on my knees crying like a child but the hurt and worry is all too clear. I am approaching 35 years old, I have a 12 year old from a previous relationship and desire to raise a normal child in a happy home with my husband. We do have 3 frozen embryos and I still can't bring myself to use them. Mainly for the fear it not working and wondering if it will put me into a downward spiral of emotions. I lost it when it didn't work, I thought my marriage was no good, I was no good and I hated myself and my doctors. Although that's not healthy but my emotions were and still are real. What's it gonna take for me to move forward? No one can tell you why it didn't work. Everything and I mean EVERYTHING leading up to it couldn't have been better. Neither my husband or I had any red flags and yet it failed. Can anyone give me some advise or peace of mind to help me move forward? Maybe someone who has been in my similar situation. I am holding to any small hope that's left and there isn't much. It's so sad to know you spend your entire savings and then when it doesn't work, your left to just deal with it on your own. Help please!!!!!!
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