Our 7 week scan

[Belle-7-]

Had our 7wk scan today...... Oh how clear it was, such a memorable moment to see our babies heart beat. Feeling blessed. Good luck to everybody ttc.

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That's just lovely. I just did my first injection, could not inject myself so hubby had to it, then we didn't administer the dose correctly. Oh the drama of IVF I can't take it.

So happy to read success stories. You should enjoy every moment, you have been through alot to get here. Congrats and such wonderful news.

[Belle-7- in reply to Hidden]

Hi Yellowrose I totally agree with the whole journey its a dark road, my husband done all my injectins he was a expert at week two. Lol

Good luck to you. Xxx

[Hidden in reply to Belle-7-]

Thanks Belle. It is a dark road, I feel very strange about it - almost like I am removed from it, looking down at myself. A defence mechanism I guess because I have no expectation of it working. Sorry to be negative, but I just honestly feel that way. I know it's possible to work, but I had a strange down reg scan the other day, I asked the nurse how my ovary looked and she just pulled a face at me, kinda saying with her face it doesn't look good. The left side has a huge endometrioma and I was counting on the right, although that has history of endometrioma. I think maybe the right one has shrunk, it's so damaged. No idea but my mind has been racing since.

Then I had a tiny bleed today, after 1st injection of stimms yesterday. That can't be right. Will call nurses tomorrow. Have told a few friends about the IVF this week but not my family, I know they will get too emotionally involved.

Do stay in touch with us, I love to hear the good stories.

How are you feeling, symptom wise? x

[Hope23 in reply to Hidden]

Glad you're on yr way now! Hope the injections aren't too awful for you. I escaped them luckily. Good luck, I'm really hoping it all goes well. Keep positive, it's all you can do!

I'm doing ok. Physically I'm ok anyway. I bled for 9 days so quite a while. Then the urine test after that still said mildly positive and no one would discharge me, so had to do two more before it said negative. Anyway just got to look forward to January now. Not really looking forward to Xmas, which may sound awful. But THIS one THIS year was meant to be the one where everything was changing you know. I would have been 3 months at Xmas so could have shared it with my lovely friends etc and would have been so wonderful to start 2015 pregnant. I know I can't focus on that but it is hard not to sometimes

Stay relaxed where you can. Love to you xx

[Hidden in reply to Hope23]

Hey there Hope.

Oh I have been thinking about you every day, your news really hit me and I know that sounds odd because I don't actually know you - but just feel so sad because you seem like such a lovely lady who deserved it to work.

You can't tell yourself off for the feelings you are having, about christmas, and next year. You have to remember you have been through alot and you are entitled to grieve for the loss. And it's such a hard time of year. Christmas is coming and that is difficult and it does not sound awful that you are not looking forward to christmas. I am also dreading it, and have been a bit vague with people about plans to meet. I am catching up with people next few weeks but not really after. And my family christmas is always massive with all the nieces and nephews and I have no idea how I will get through it. So I totally totally get what you are feeling. I am amazed at myself for planning my IVF for this time of year!

Did you tell your friends about the IVF? I presume not from your comment. It's a v tough one.

Honestly, if you need to meet up to chat about it all, I am happy to meet you somewhere for a coffee, you are allowed to talk about it and have your off days - I know I would.

You need to be kind to yourself.

Thanks for the positive sentiments too, that is very sweet and kind. I do need that.

Love to you too Hope. Hugs from here xx

[Hope23 in reply to Hidden]

Thanks lovely

Some close friends knew about the Ivf but only two of them knew I got a positive and then a miscarriage. So I don't have to talk about it with many people. I'll be ok soon, I'm already feeling stronger and laughing with my darlin man again, I tell you... For a week or more I never thought I'd smile again. But people are going through much more than me at the end of the day.

Glad you got yr lovely husband stabbing you with a needle!! That's true love! Lol

Xx

[Belle-7- in reply to Hope23]

Your really are an amazing woman hope23 and believe me you will be come, if not this year maybe next year your time will come. Your one of the most strongest kindest women on this site and the most thought about it in my eyes anyway take care xxxxxx

[Hope23 in reply to Belle-7-]

Ah thanks belle. That's sweet. Everyone on here is so helpful when we need advice or support. It's a great venting place too! I'm on the endometriosis one too, and that's good as there are so many knowledgeable ladies on there.

I don't feel that strong Most days but I am getting there slowly. All we can do now is look forward positively to January.

Hope yr not getting too much morning sickness, I was getting it at 6 weeks but never actually hurled! Take care. Thanks for your nice message xx

[babylonia]

Congratulations Belle-7, it is amazing moment to see this small dot pulsing. I had my scan at week 6 and it was really tiny, i am going to book myself a scan for 9 week, can't wait till week 12 its look ages ahead. Take care and enjoy your pregnancy xxx

[Belle-7- in reply to babylonia]

Hi yes it does seem a long way away. I waited long enough for this lol ......... Xxxxx

[Hope23]

Choked up! How lovely! Made up for you belle. Great news. Take care xx

[Belle-7- in reply to Hope23]

Thanks Hope. I'm hoping your ok lots of love to you. Xx

[Hope23 in reply to Belle-7-]

'm doing ok. Physically I'm ok anyway. I bled for 9 days so quite a while. Then the urine test after that still said mildly positive and no one would discharge me, so had to do two more before it said negative. Anyway just got to look forward to January now. Not really looking forward to Xmas, which may sound awful. But THIS one THIS year was meant to be the one where everything was changing you know. I would have been 3 months at Xmas so could have shared it with my lovely friends etc and would have been so wonderful to start 2015 pregnant. I know I can't focus on that but it is hard not to sometimes

Take care and look after yourself! Xx xx

[Hope23]

Choked up! How lovely! Made up for you belle. Great news. Take care xx

[Hopeful1982]

Congratulations Belle-7! It is such a long journey! Enjoy it!

Hope23 I totally understand your pain. Also dreading Christmas and new year. It's a real time for reflection and family so the loss feels so much deeper. Although we're still trying naturally I didn't expect in nan 2014 for another full year to pass with no pregnancy. We're going to try ivf in the new year but obviously hoping we won't need too...

Lots of love x

[Hope23 in reply to Hopeful1982]

A year's a long time isn't it, but when it comes to trying to conceive and the joy of IVF it whizzes by in a flash and you can't help dread another Xmas with the worry again of what the next year will hold. Anyway it will make us stronger if we make it and we'll get through cos we have to! Take care. I'll try not be a grinch if you will! Xx

[bella79]

Congratulations belle-7.so pleased for u!it's amazing isn't it!hope ur feeling ok xxx