I have a very complicated family as I'm sure many people do in this society, to cut a long story short my mum n dad divorced many years ago, and my dad re married. My Dad's wife has a daughter who is 21 in a few days, I'm 28years old now and to say we didn't really hit it off would be fair. Not through want of trying on my part though. It was the final straw when I went to visit my dad last year as he lives in some far distant but very sunny land, she was also there. She said my dad was treating her differently and overall was just very spoilt and jelous.. I expected this because her mum treats her like a baby..
So imagain my shock yesterday when my dad told me my in married step sister is PREGNANT! I can't describe in words how I felt, she didn't plan a baby and as far as I can see is still too immature to look after one, yet god sees fit to grace her with a child and make me suffer all the more.
I usually feel bad for those jelous thoughts or those fake smiles and Congratz but something inside me is different this time... I did not say Congratz or pretend to be happy and I can't be happy.
The first grandchild my dad should have been graced with is ours, not the one of a child who only related by marriage.
And further more what hurts the most is that my grandparents have known 3 weeks and not told me.. I feel betrayed, hurt and most of all self pity!
Thanks for listening.. A done and out of the game saz x