1st cycle

[Jinki]

My husband and I have just been to out 1st patient info evening. I get my screening bloods taken at the end of the month. I am so anxious about the next few weeks. I feel so emotional already, god knows what I'll be like when i start the hormones. I know that it will be worth it but in terrified already of doing the preg test. It breaks my heart every month when i get my period. I don't know how I will cope if it fails. Everyone keeps saying to stay positive but it is so hard, they don't know what it feels like. I feel empty and sad all the time. If anyone has any advice they can give me, i would really appreciate it. Good luck to you all out there. Love n hugs xx

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Hi Jinki

firstly, good luck. This is a really big step towards getting your family, so it is bound to be a whole mix of emotions.

One thing your clinic will hopefully have talked about at the info evening was about getting support and especially counselling. Most offer some amount of free sessions, and I would strongly recommend you take these, both before and if needs be, after the treatment. Before you go for the treatment, they can help you with processing all that is going on and give you some methods for coping with all that is going on. And afterwards, they can help you make sense of things if you aren't successful this time.

Also, if there is anyone you know who has been through fertility treatment, it is probably good to have a cup of tea and talk with them, as you have already identified, it's hard to really appreciate what is going on when you haven't been through it. Through Infertility Network UK there are a number of support groups where others are going through the same thing as you. You may find these useful too.

Good luck!

FG x