Finally seems real

[Loopy9]

*trigger warning*

I really don’t want to upset those that are struggling but did want to hopefully give some hope.

I believed from quite a young age something would stop me from having children. I couldn’t tell you where that came from but I’ve always felt it.

For a long time I was with the wrong person and ultimately left because I knew I never wanted a family with him.

I met my husband but it was complicated as he already has children.

I still felt I’d have problems but we started trying - I came off the pill and after one period I was pregnant. I couldn’t believe it. But I was bleeding continuously. It took the hospital nearly 3 weeks to decide it was definitely ectopic and I was rushed for surgery. It was terrifying and devastating.

After I came round I was told not only had we lost the baby, I’d lost my tube and I had bad endometriosis.

That was 2 years ago and we ttc every month since.

As my husband has kids we were not allowed nhs funding but decided to borrow money and try private ivf. We wanted to try quickly in case the Endo got worse.

Had ivf treatment in September and am very pleased to say it worked first time and I am now 7 weeks pregnant.

We had an early viability scan this week and saw the baby was in the right place this time and saw a little heartbeat.

It’s still early days and who knows what the future will hold but I’m so hopeful that this is it now, it can happen.

Sending love and positive thoughts to all those trying x

#endometriosis #ivf #ectopic

[Livinginhope2019]

Congratulations to you, I hope the rest of your pregnancy goes well xx

[Shelleybean]

Lovely news to hear! Congratulations 🥳 Hope you have a happy, easy rest of your pregnancy xx

[CLDxxx]

Lovely news. So happy it’s all going well for you. Good luck xx

[JojoWash]

Oh wow! Such great news!! So happy for you! Keep us informed 😊

[Mara84]

Congratulations.

[ElectraHunter]

Loopy9, you can't even imagine how am I happy for you to hear it! My congrats! Your story can be an example for all those desperate women, it shows how almost all of us can achieve our purposes and be incredible happy because of a future miracle in our houses and souls. Hope your gestation will go smoothly and pray for it, because you deserve a piece of happiness after all those years of trying

[Loopy9 in reply to ElectraHunter]

Thank you. I’m so relieved. Still a little nervous until I’m further along but at 8 weeks now with lots of symptoms- the worst being frequent nausea most of the day. But it will be worth it! X

[Hope9931]

Hi Loopy

How are you feeling? Me full of emotion and negative thoughts. I will start my injections on Monday 11 . A bit down as I had a scan yesterday a routine one and only 4 follicles. 2 month ago when I had a routine scan I had 7. So I think is the progynova who downgrade you. Hope Meriofert will increase them.

Did you have a 3 day embryo transfer or 5 blastocyst?

Thanksxxxx

[Loopy9 in reply to Hope9931]

5 day transfer but they were on the fence at first on whether to do 3 or 5 day and whether to transfer 1 or 2 embryos.

The whole process is very all over the place so be prepared for last minutes change of plans etc depending on how you go.

Hopefully the stim drugs will get them growing again. 🤞🏻

Don’t worry I was kind of negative before collection and again after finding out the majority of them weren’t mature, and I definitely thought it hadn’t worked from 3dpt and expected my AF everyday until test day.

Try to cut yourself some slack it may all go as you hope 🤞🏻X

[Hope9931]

Good Morning Loopy!

How are you feeling? How is your pregnancy's develops? 12 weeks scan in just here.

So my journey was not really great.

I had 9 follicles, one was really big 23 last Friday, few smaller, 1x17, 1x16, 1x15, 1x14, 1x13, and few smaller.

So they decided to do my EC Wednesday no scans between Friday and Wednesday.

So I had my EC Wednesday but they left me for too long and some were too big and they was not able to catch them.

So in the end of day I had only 3 collected and yesterday I had a phone call 2 fertilized. They booked me for Saturday to put one back and the other one to be left to day 6 and freeze it.

Such a stressful time. I am still hoping they both good quality.

Did you do yours with CARE London?

We are register with CARE already but I am not sure how good they are as well.

We really need knowledgeable people .

xxxx

[Loopy9 in reply to Hope9931]

Sorry for the delayed response.

Had my 12 week scan and all is well thank goodness!

I was with Care but I’m up north - Nottingham. I was concerned they triggered too early with me as I had only one or two follicles at the ideal size. It resulted in 14 eggs - 10 were immature, 2 didnt fertilise so like you we were left with two and had one implanted and one frozen.

It was very stressful hearing 14 one day and two the next so I can definitely relate’

I hope the transfer went well and (as much as I didn’t manage this) I hope you can/ are managing to get through the 2ww without going completely stir crazy. Got everything crossed for you!!

[Hope9931 in reply to Loopy9]

Hi Loopy

I am really pleased the 12 weeks scan went well. Now you can enjoy your pregnancy. Hope you are feeling well.

I had a transfer last Saturday, 3 days transfer. They said good quality. From 2 embryos we had one back , unfortunately they discard the other as by day 5 was still 6 cells. So another lost.

I have a feeling I have to start from scratch again as I have symptoms my period is coming soon .

I am already registered with Care ! So I think we will go with them !

😘😘😘😘😘

[Loopy9 in reply to Hope9931]

I know how hard it is reading every little symptom but try not to give up or get too stressed until the 2 weeks is up. I had a complete meltdown at 5dpt because I was getting what I thought was endo pain. The body does so many strange things twinges, pains, spotting etc try not to write it off till you know.

Crossing my fingers for you till test day x

[Afrohair]

Lovely story I also have endometriosis and had a misscarrige at 13 weeks what made you decide ivf and how did you pay for it I’m in a similar position as in I want to give my partner children had kids with my ex though it’s heartbreaking I won’t get funding so worried about costs though and was going to have surgery for endo

[Loopy9 in reply to Afrohair]

Hi sorry for the delayed response.

We decided on ivf because of my endo. The ectopic meant I had one tube removed and there was a good chance the remaining tube was also blocked. We tried naturally for 18 months after the ectopic and having hit 35 I didn’t want to wait any longer in case it was a blockage preventing things.

We took a loan out and went with Access fertility. Yes it’s very expensive and we’ll be paying it off a few years but I knew it was something I had to try.

I will say the main reason we were willing to try was there didn’t seem to be any other issues with my fertility besides the tubes so we felt there was a reasonable chance of success if they were bypassed.

I think it’s wrong that funding is not available if only one partner has had children already. It’s like penalising for partner choice and could potentially cause problems and stress for a couple if self funding is not an option.

Wishing you lots of luck in your journey/ whatever you decide

[Loopy9]

Pleased to say the 12 week scan went well. Saw and heard the heartbeat and baby was very wriggly and kicking. Fantastic to see but still very surreal to think that’s going on inside me.

Morning sickness has been awful - I’ve been sick almost everyday and nauseous most of each day also. Hope it eases up soon - finding it hard work and worrying about fluid levels etc

Sure all will be well and bump continues to grow & baby continues to thrive

[Hope9931 in reply to Loopy9]

Good Morning Loopy!

Hope you are ok, and morning sicknesses they al gone by now. When did you start to have pregnancy symptoms?

Well my test day is due on Sunday , I already tested and had 2 lines!

I had an electronic one as well , pregnant!

I have started to test on Tuesday , line was feint in the beginning and now is getting darker.

I am a bit worried last night was a bit darker and this morning not really.

But I got this few days before , when evening was darker than morning.

Such a stressful time.

I have some brown mucus on and off, I remember you said you had this as well.

I think cyclogest pessaries can give you some brown discharge as well.

I am really stressed not to miscarriage ...

xxxxx

[Loopy9]

Morning sickness still raging unfortunately.

The positive tests sounds like a great sign.

I had a little bit of brown mucus on 5dpt (guess implanting) and again a week later.

I’ve had a tiny bit recently but had quite a bit one night (around 3w) which was very scary, but was all brown not red and had 2 scans since and all fine (I was on pessaries too).

First symptoms probably between 5 and 6 weeks (so probably about 1.5-2 weeks after my official test day) nausea and tingly boobs (to be fair they’re the most noticeable symptoms I’ve had throughout, along with being super tired).

Completely understand how stressful it is. And it doesn’t seem to go away. I relaxed a bit at 12 week scan, now I’m 13+3 and nervous again waiting to feel any movement (12w scan seems an age ago).

As much as I don’t heed my own advice, try to remember that worrying and stress won’t change what’s going on inside/ whatever will happen.

I’m sure it will be ok and pleased for you that you’re getting positives xx