I must apologise for the hurt and upset caused by my recent post on loving yourself. I understand that the way I introduced the subject by how you would treat a child was insensitive to women facing childless and for this I am very sorry. I have deleted the post.
I was diagnosed with endometriosis when I was 19 and throughout the years the thought that I may never be able to have children has been forefront of my mind. My periods were so bad that I was bedridden for the first three days of each cycle and have been on various hormone treatments for the past 11 years.
For the past two and a quarter years I have been trying to conceive, and am willing to try anything to help my body fight endometriosis. These include, acupuncture, chinese herbs, yoga, meditation, Mayan abdonimal massage and radical changes to my diet I am now gluten, dairy, soya, alcohol, caffeine, red meat and processed sugar free! I have managed to change my periods from seven days of pain to 2 out of my 3 last periods being pain-free!
Still no pregnancy though even after two lots of fertility treatments. I am now on Prostap and awaiting a laparoscopy to remove ovarian cysts.
Last year I spiralled down into depression and felt like a big cloud had sucked the colour out of every aspect of my life. I knew that I should be grateful for my wonderful husband, amazing friends and supportive family, but all I could think was:
“IT’S NOT BLOODY FAIR!”
My doctor sent me on the mindfulness-based stress reduction course which has changed my life. I am now a volunteer for the infertility network UK and run a support group and have set up Mindful Muma-to-be to try to share what I have learnt with others going through the pain of infertility.
The positive statements in my post are the ones I use myself on a daily basis to cope with my life as it is now and I am willing to do whatever it takes to be a mother, even if that means adoption.
Again I apologise for my insensitivity.
Aka Mindful Muma-to-be