i was at the hospital on tuesday for scans until then i was managing the pain well, i was given an internal scan because as well as having endo i have cysts on my ovaries. Anyway since the scan i have been in so much pain, everytime i move i want to cry, the smallest things exhaust me, i havent had any energy since tuesday, it was definitely the cause of an excruciating flare up.
not only am i in physical pain im also going through hell mentally, i feel like im living in a black tunnel and cant escape, i have a lovely guy who i love to bits but i seem to be snapping at him hes so understanding im just not sure how much either of us can take, ive moved house in the last 2 months ( we moved into our dream home) but thats getting to me too, ive changed docs and he is referring me to a new gynae as my previous one was less than understanding, i was told that a lap was out of the question because i have had previous ops which i think is harsh she blamed adhesions, and said there would be no point, i feel at the moment there is no hope for me, ive got to see my gp on wednesday and i think i need to tell him exactly how im feeling, my job and relationship is at risk becuase of the endo, i personally think i deserve a shot of a laparoscopy to see if it will help me at all.
my team leader at work doesnt understand he is a man and as far as he is concerned i have period pain, despite me trying to explain everything to him, hes not the most understanding of people, (god help his wife is all i say)
apologies for rambling i just feel extremely alone and down at the moment. i work 3 days ive already had to cut my hours to part time because of the endo, im due in work tomorrow and all i want to do is curl in a ball and cry.
again apologies for rambling i guess alot or most of us feel this way and i shouldnt be dumping this on you all but thanks for listening and thank you in advance for any replies