Depression

[Geordie_girl_77]

I feel very depressed. I couldn’t carry a pregnant and have stage 3 endo. Has anyone else struggled

[BloomingMarvellous]

Am so sorry for the loss of possibilities and family you are coping with. It’s a hard thing to digest on top of the rest that is endo. You need to grieve this but preferably not alone. I hope that you feel able to reach out and talk to someone about this , even if friends aren’t available like a GP or sometimes when things are tough I’ve picked up the phone to the Samaritans. They’ve been wonderful when I don’t know what to do with the pain of this beast and there’s no waiting for a referral either which is the worst when one’s horribly low. All the love

[Geordie_girl_77 in reply to BloomingMarvellous]

All I want is to be pregnant again. I want my baby. I don’t know whether to consider another surgery in the hope that it I get pregnant again it will make it easier to see through to full term. Or whether another surgery will reduce my ovarian reserve even further as I’m 39. Thank you so much for replying I am so broken right now

[Bespp]

Big big hugs your way. Not much I can say to make things better right now but make sure you take a few deep breaths every day as it helps with the grief and pain you are going through. 🤗

[Cockapoo-2016]

It's very heartbreaking 💔😢 reading your message. I suffer with depression and anxiety for 5years got better. We where trying for a while last year or two, then I got diagnosed with high cholesterol, so we wanted to try abit longer before I got put on statins, once your on them you can't get pregrant bc the meds will course miscarriage or deformed baby. Still no luck, back in September 2021, I got up feeling fine, two hours later all of a sudden I got a sereve lower abdominal stabbing pain that made me throw up and I was rolled in a ball, couldn't get off the floor I was in so much pain, so I got rushed to A&E had tests left right and centre they found a cyst on my left ovary. I was referred urgently to gynecologist for ultrasound scan and found it was a cyst 8cm. Then I was booked in by a consultant gynecologist for surgery, at this point they did know what kind of cyst it was, they where convinced it was a tumor ovary cyst, as my ca125 where sky high, the emotions I went through, I wS so scared. Surgery was booked in for octber then 5 hours later it was cancelled. So I was re-booked for November the 2nd, had surgery and there was a possibility I had to have my ovary and fallopian tube removed. So you can imagine whay was going through my head. The surgeon found out it was endometriosis 8cm cyst that had reputed. Possibility stage 3 or 4, since I had my surgery I have not been the same and since I was diagnosed with high cholesterol that course heart attack, stroke etc, so I am on meds now the longer I felt it the higher my cholesterol got, I have fell in to depression again bc of my endometriosis and cholesterol I can't have children, I have break downs, I cry and feel I will never been a mum. Now to top things up I have another endometriosis cyst on my bowel where I will probably need further surgery. I am 43 and feel empty and hurt I can not have a family. I have gone back into counselling, its helping me to come to terms with the condition. Have you thought about seeing a counsellor private or NHS. There's a website you can go on called mind matters you can refer yourself, the website link is mindmattersnhs.co.uk its takes a month or two to see a counsellor, if your depression is moderate to serve only you can answer that on the form they will see you quicker.Lastly have you thought about maybe adoption?

I know its not the same,it took me a while to get use to the idea of adoption. It's not for everyone.May something you might what to think about.

Hope I have helped you abit and wish you the best.

All the love

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