Hey everyone.. I'm new, awaiting a lap, just wanted to share something I wrote today. Not feeling my best and I never reach out for help, just want to see if this resonates with anyone to help make me feel less alone, no one in my family understands.. thanks, love Echo x
At least when I broke my ribs the pain had an end. Ephemeral pain. The worst I've ever experienced, but I could control it, within reason. I could gaurd myself when walking upstairs or going over bumps in the car. I could find positions to sit in that gave me ease. This pain has no end. And there is no such thing as ease. I feel as though I am being worn down. By a force I cannot see or hear, only feel. And how it feels changes by the hour. One minute it is glass, sharp nails protruding into my insides, hot and burning, then a gnawing, dull, pounding ache with bouts of nausea and hot flashes. The side effects from opioid medication are too much to bare after 3 days, and by day 4 I'm reduced to over the counter meds, and scalding heater pads and hot water bottles that leave marks on my skin and leave it red raw. But the scalding burns are favourable over everything else. I am dizzy and weak, I cannot sleep for more than a few hours at a time before being reminded that my pain meds have wore off. It is a constant discomfort, I find myself dragging myself through the day just to get to the next. I try herbal teas and hot baths and essential oils and meditation. I stay hydrated even though I want to do nothing but lay in bed and cry. I eat my fruits and vegetables. I rest. And I persevere. For the day to come where I can bend down to tie my shoelaces without crying
Feeling Low :(
Feeling horrible 
Feeling alone and lost
Feeling fed up
What contraception works best for pain ? 
