Everything is too much

[Bubbles88]

I'm jist so broken down at this point, i don't even know where to turn. I'm sitting here thinking of who I can talk to and I don't have a family member or friend that I could talk to, i don't feel like once again being emotional about being infertile because all I get are the same responses anyways. I am 2 month late for my period. 2 months of negative tests. My ob won't see me until March, which means more waiting to just be told once again, that this will jist happen because of my endo. I don't know what options I really have anymore anyways. I can't even handle this overwhelming feeling of "why me", what did I really do to deserve this.

[L2213]

I’m really sorry you are feeling this way, please know you aren’t alone. It’s hard for others to understand the impact this has but I assure you myself and others on here will have felt the same way so there’s a group of people always willing to listen if you need to talk. Are you under a specialist in relation to your fertility? Depending on how long you’ve been trying for they might be able to offer some additional support xxx

[Bubbles88 in reply to L2213]

I see a specialist in March. It's not that I've been trying to get pregnant but going 2 month without one really gets the thinking going, and its more upsetting everytime it's negative. IVF seems so far out of reach for me because I'm not even close to being able to afford something like that, there would have to be a huge change in my life and I would need years. But it feels like I don't really have years. My body is failing me and I have no answers as to why and probably never will. And that's just hard

[L2213 in reply to Bubbles88]

Hopefully it will come back soon for you and your consultant will be able to give you some advice when you do see them. Until you start trying you won’t know and some ladies with endometriosis still go on to conceive naturally so you just never know. Good luck with everything xxx

[CelestialFluff]

I think the previous reply is really good. I have found that being able to read about and asked questions on here has made things a bit easier.

I've found the endo thing a bit of a grieving process and very emotional. But things have got slightly better - not necessarily physically but how I am feeling.

Can you access any psychological support? Is there a chronic pain service or endo service that can offer someone to talk to about how you are feeling?

There may be a charity phone number linked to endo that you could contact maybe?

Here is always a good option too for knowing you are not alone and asking questions.

Sending love and a bit of hope that however you are feeling now it will pass. Xxxx