Everyone needs a rant sometimes - Especially with Endo!

[LauraJayne92]

So I don't post on here very often but I feel like I need a rant and where else better to do it!

So I am always in a constant battle to look after myself as best I can - After growing up watching my mum suffer with Endo for years when there was no info out there about it I now feel that it is my duty to utilise every piece of help that I stumble across - I follow a gluten free diet - I only drink organic milk so I take in no crazy cows hormones - I try, okay.

I'm not the kind of person who talks about my endo - I try to not let it affect me as much as I can - I suffer in silence and have put myself in some pretty crappy situations in the past when I haven't wanted to give in to the pain so I carry on doing the crazy things my friends are doing (I guess out of fear of missing out!!). I try not to take too much medication - I have a high pain threshold and I hate the thought of filling my body up with drugs!

But last week... Man! I had my first Laparoscopy 3 years ago December and I have not experienced pain like this since before then! It was excruciating and I did not know what to do with myself! I think in the depth of it I would have accepted a cuddle from a grizzly bear - I just needed some loving! So I had just come out of the other side of my period (which wasn't that bad might I add!) but jeez Louise did the pains creep up on me - I've also had pink wee for the last week since finishing my period - (this is not something that I normally have) - And a horrendous headache verging on migraine since that I can't shake off!!

I feel - Like I am sure most of you do - That people put me in the 'Oh, she just can't handle her period pains' bracket, but do you know what? It's tough and unless you have it then shut up and mind your own business! I'm not one to drone on about it - In fact I hardly mention it - I don't post about it on Social Media or tell my colleagues when I'm having a shit endo day, I just get on with life. One of the most important men in my life laid on the floor with me 2 weeks ago in my parents kitchen because I couldn't bear the thought of standing up any longer and thought I was going to pass out - It was the first time in 11 years that he has seen me even slightly beaten by it and that is the way I will keep it - I just feel like every now and again you need to let it all out!

On a final note, I apologise for using you guys as the audience for my rampage!

Mwah! xx

[AllthatGlitters]

That sounds awful, I think we have all been there suffering with the pain and not knowing what to do with ourselves!! I really think if people haven’t been through this then they can’t imagine the pain we are in. You are braver than me as when I am in pain, I try and continue on like normal but it’s so difficult and in the end I have to give in. I think if your family & friends know you well then they can tell that you are not yourself. Rest when you need to 💕x

[Jolt]

Hey hun,

Everyone needs a rant sometimes, and thanks for sharing - I'm exactly like you in how I deal with my Endo usually, but currently at the laying on the floor stage...I will make myself get up again shortly! Take care x

[Katie1982]

Hi LauraJayne92

Please Don't apologise. It's like because it's all associated with "that time of the month" we are expected to grin and bear it! It's so taboo- yacky periods. To be honest I've had enough of it and have started talking openly about my endo! I tell people "it's a thing you know, it's real". Any other pain condition would be openly supported .... (bit of a rant....)

It's sad to hear women say they suffer in silence..... I think you are wonderful LauraJayne92 ! You watched your mum go through it and now you suffer from it too. You sound like a strong woman who gets up and lives her life! A hard thing to do with endo!!!

LauraJayne92 good to hear from you and hear your experience!!!!

Big up to all you amazing women!!!

Xx