I'm having a day where my brain just feels like smush, I've left half my shopping in the trolley, and although I'm not in bad pain, my limbs feel like they are so weak and feeble! my hips are doing that thing where you think they're going to start giving you jip if you push it. I'm emotionally erratic and feel as though I could cry at any moment.
But I find it really hard to give myself the day off - being a self-employed musician. I don't have an office and I always have an ever growing to do list. It's so hard to accept that today is just not going to be what I thought it was - without giving myself a hard time anyway! I feel so isolated with this aspect of endo too, as there's no real support for it, or medication. I know that sometimes you just have to rest, and that's that. But I feel like if it was recognised by a medical professional that maybe I could feel more justified in needing time out due to tiredness - any advice? Would I feel better if my specialist said - yes, you seem to be suffering from chronic fatigue, or is it something I just need to accept internally. Even writing this makes me feel like I'm not worthy of giving myself that diagnosis, that I'm just whining about nothing. Argh!