I know I need to but don’t want to have my laparoscopy :(

[Tamzbrown]

*please read my other post to understand my pain & frustration first* so I’ve just come from my gynaecologist appointment, why are they such horrible people? Don’t they know that the fear of the fact that you might not be able to conceive is some of our WORST nightmares?? At the clinic I went to it wasn’t a “scanning” clinic so she didn’t check to see if the chocolate cysts (that they weren’t sure were there) prior to going to the GYN today was still there. Upon arrival she was very stern & a bit of a b***h and said “so your doctors sent you here because you HAVE endometriosis” I said no.... *see previous posy* told her my story and said “so we’re not sure if I do have it” so can we stop using that terminology. She then “softened” and was like ok... you don’t have any of the obvious symptoms and get your periods like clockwork, no pain etc so the only way to know for sure is to have a lap. I promised myself I wouldn’t cry again in front of these people and managed not to... my partner was outside in the waiting area and as soon as I saw him burst in to tears... tbh I’m still crying now... I can’t stop crying because I don’t Understand why me?? Like no one in my family has had difficulty getting pregnant, we’ve only been trying for 6 months or so, but it was an accident that I’d found out that I may have endo, the whole point of going to have an ultrasound in the first place was because I thought I was pregnant... now I’m going from that to having to have surgery??? I DONT WANT TO! I’m an emotional wreck right now and I know you all may think I’m being melodramatic but this is how I’m feeling... someone please cheer me up because I just can’t stop crying. Not only that but because she was pressuring me into booking my lap there and then I said I’d need to speak to my partner about it first... so she’s booked me in go and see her on the 1st of June to tell her what I’ve decided. I’ve accepted I have endo now just need to pluck up the courage to do the lap

[Peyten]

Hi I’m sorry for feeling like this, I would advice having the lap, it may not just be the case of have endo it could be something else and if they do it then they could solve the problem which may help you feel better I think it’s better knowing then not, but you don’t have to rush into anything just take your time and don’t feel pressured into anything in here if you just want a chat to talk abou stuff xxxx

[Tamzbrown in reply to Peyten]

Thank you for responding Peyten, I have emailed them and let them know that I am happy to go through with the lap... just wanna get it over and done with now! Xx

[V-ssd]

Hope you are fine. I know exaclty how you feel. I was in tears for 2 months every night and I couldn't accept the fact that I have endo and im just 22. ( I fell in depresion and all the time in my head is other girls same age as me live happy and there was me with this endomonster ) When my gyno said I have a small endometrioma and maybe I should go for lap it was like a bomb for me. I said look again maybe I dont have it because I was not in chronic pain. And then I went to another gyno and she gave me progesteron tablets for 6 months. Maybe you should look here about serrapeptase and give a try it wont hurt. There are a lot story about it eps one girl get rid of endometrioma with serrapeptase.

Try to relax it will be fine xx

[Tamzbrown in reply to V-ssd]

Thank you I have calmed down now... I’m going to be brave and do the lap as I just want it over and done with... I’m so sorry to hear about your journey I could imagine I’m only 25 so god knows how I’d have felt at 22... I know exactly what you mean about seeing other young women and them appearing fine... but truth is you don’t know what could be going on with them.., it could be mental problems, or a silent disease as you well know.., I’ve tried to not wish for anyone else’s life but my own, thank you I will look into that meditation to see the benefits etc. I hope you’re fine too xxx