Feeling emotional rn 😔

[princessk09]

Does anyone else get really emotional?

Last few weeks I’ve been feeling so down and just randomly crying in my room at night or having mental breakdowns. I think the whole being in pain a lot is wearing me down to the point I don’t feel happy anymore. Everything irritates me and then I want to cry.

It’s hard as I always like to act as if everything is okay and act tough constantly. If I mention I’m in pain to my parents, they ignore me or just say “you’re a nightmare with this” so I’m basically fighting this alone. I have my boyfriend but he doesn’t fully understand and he lives far away.

I don’t know what to do right now so any advice would be amazing. I’ve just passed ovulation if that helps at all with my mood swings or does endo cause mood swings?

[cmbxm]

could you be experiencing pms or pmdd? this could explain your mood swings x

[princessk09 in reply to cmbxm]

I don’t know, I normally get PMS right before my period which isn’t for another 2 weeks

[CassieJ]

Hi Princess,

When my pain was at its worst (daily for 3/4 months) I also got very emotional. Even though I live with my boyfriend and he was great, I felt alone as I wasn’t able to work the way I used to and I had to cancel a lot of social things/couldn’t keep up with friends. Also it upset him/my parents that I was so unwell-they wanted to fix it or be able to see the problem.

I think for me the constant pain wore me down/I’ve always tended to be more tearful when tired/ill. But also I non consciously felt very scared that the pain wouldn’t ever stop and that I would always feel that unwell. Also whilst I can’t prove it/my doctors couldn’t explain why I was more moody other than managing the pain (one did point out how draining chronic pain was) it always felt to me like a hormonal imbalance at least in part physical not psychological. As when I was tearful it often felt like I had PMS without then bleeding etc.

I was not diagnosed with anything else and when the pain was dealt with my mood normalised/went back to normal immediately. If it helps I’ve just been on a walking holiday and climbed for 7 days and haven’t cried/felt overly emotional at all! This would have been impossible for me a year ago.

Hope you know you aren’t being a nightmare, just feeling what anyone would if they were in such pain all the time. I’ve broken 3 bones in my life and nothing vaguely compared to the endo pain.

Go well,

X

[princessk09 in reply to CassieJ]

My parents aren’t that arsed tbh like they never make me feel any better and constantly want to argue (especially my Mum)

I just wanna give up or at least I want all the pain to stop. I’ve tried strengthening my back muscles and I still get pain even when I walk. Golf makes it worse due to the unnatural twisting of the spine. My parents always say things are my fault and that I’m a weirdo for possibly having endo.

I feel bloated 24/7 which is affecting my self esteem massively even though I go gym everyday and eat pretty health except for a cheat day.

I wish I could afford a week long yoga retreat tbh xx

[rancane]

Yes, same here. I had a laparoscopy 2 months ago and since then I experience more mood swings and panic attacks. I am waiting for the time when I will feel normal.

[princessk09 in reply to rancane]

I’m still waiting for my first lap but for now I’m going to try a TENS machine

[Bbzx in reply to rancane]

Hi, I'm not sure if your still on here, I came accross this old post and feel exactly as you put, I had a lap and diagnosed back in Jan and now constantly have anxiety and mood swings. Did anything help yours? X