If you've read my previous posts, you'll know my employer and me aren't on the best of terms when it comes to health.
I recently had a week off sick (5 days) with a stomach bug, so completely unrelated to my 3 previous absences which were all to do with my pain. The first was a week extra after my laparoscopy and the other two were very bad days shortly after.
This meeting was meant to be with my team leader and a member of HR but instead, it was sprung on my today and it was my team leader and the other team leader that I have had problems with.
In the same way as every other meeting with this particular team leader, I was made to feel like I was just taking days off without any real need. I was questioned (again) about what medication I was taking and why. I was made to feel like I'm literally making all this up and that it's all in my head. It kept being said that doctors aren't finding anything.
It was also said that because I went against what a private specialist advised, to get the coil to try and control the bleeding, I am going against medical advice and I'm declaring myself unfit for work?
I said I'm seeing another specialist under the NHS and I was looked at as if I was wasting my time like literally just doing it for no reason.
It kept being said that I don't have a diagnosis and I won't have one any time soon so I can't guarantee I won't have any more time off. I said, I haven't had a day off related to my pain since August and that was seen as irrelevant, all that mattered was that I've had 4 absences in the 6 month employment.
The worst part is, it was then said we will say goodbye and finish up off the record, so I agreed. I was thinking that was it, how wrong as I....
It was then went on to say that I should be seeking answers to all my unanswered questions and I said like how can anyone think I want to live like this? I have seen doctor after doctor and still I'm struggling so this lead to it being said that it's just period pain.
Then, it was said that is she was my mum / dad she would be furious and concerned that I'm on morphine with no real reason why. I'm speechless. My whole family is concerned and I'm trying so bloody hard to get answers and all this is doing is making my mental health as bad as my physical health.
Now, I'm being taken to a disciplinary as it was said that's what's needed..
I'm just speechless and terrified.