HELP AND ADVICE

[Nikki84]

Hi Ladies,

No posted for a while and this is a bit of a long one so please bear with me.

I have stage 4 endo, PCOS and about 18months ago I got really ill and lost the feeling in my pelvis and upper legs, I spent 2 months in hospital and 1 month in a rehab centre for support and physio, this was really hard and I had a massive breakdown and tried to kill myself a few times, I am home now and doing better than what I was, my amazing husband has been my rock through all of this, he works 12h shifts comes home looks after me and our home, he even went back and too to the hospital ever day for visiting even after doing a long shift, I can’t imagine what he was going through when all this was happening, he never moan, he just got on with things and was there every day supporting me so the least I could do is perform my wifely duties and take care of my amazing hubby for a Chang.

No I just feel like a complete failure, because I can’t feel anything in that area we tried to use something to help!! (Hope u understand what I am getting at)

My hubby seemed to be enjoying himself at first and then when I struggled to perform we used something but it was too late, this had put him off, he wouldn’t say it but I know that’s what the problem is (it must feel like he’s making love to a doll that don’t respond) this is really making me so upset and I feel it is affecting are marriage because we are not as close as we was before and that kills me knowing I can’t even satisfy my husband intimately 😂😅

Please help, any advice we’ll come xx