If anyone has been following my story you will know I had a negative lap last month under a general gynae.
I am really struggling just now.
I feel like I'm constantly fighting a losing battle. I've had 7 years of every endo symptom in the book and still, doctors don't seem to want to listen and I am still no closer to answers
And now, a job I started last month and had been loving I am now loathing as I feel that now because they know I have a long wait to see a specialist and am on morphine until then, they couldn't be less supportive. I feel like they're looking for any excuse to get rid of me.
I just feel so hopeless.
Has anyone else fight like this is just never going to end?
I'm sick of people telling me things are good because they can't find anything wrong but that is the WORST part of this.
I've been unwell for 7 years without knowing what's wrong.
People don't get how horrible and confusing that is.
I feel like every doctor I see thinks I am mad or a pain med junkie.
My gynae / surgeon has now referred me to the BSGE Endo Centre in Edinburgh but I've been told by the centre that because I live outwith the area they cover, I will be waiting a long time and because my lap found nothing I'm likely to be waiting even longer.
I can't deal with months of waiting and I wish I was in the financial position to go private but I just ament and it's terrible that I feel pushed into this decision because I can't get the treatment I need.
Ugh, I just needed rant and this place is the best place for support.
Today is just an awful day😭