I have stage 4 endometriosis, bowel,bladder etc involvement. I had ovaries removed and hysterectomy. I live in constant pain, cant work, can barely walk, take around 40 pills a day, life is hard.
I know this story is similar to many of you out there, what I don't know, what I have been to scared to ask, to talk about with anyone is this.
When I was in hospital i was asked by my doctor if I had been sexually abused as a child, My answer was yes, I have never disclosed the age it started or how long it lasted, not to anyone. I have always been scared that my family would see it, my brother had sex with me, he is a bit older than me and so was developed. As far as my parents are concerned it happened once which was terrible for them. The truth is I was 7 when it started and 11 when it stopped. It happened periodically, sometime multiple times a week, sometimes it would be months apart. The number must be in the hundreds. He isn't a bad person, I have never spoke to him about it but I have forgave him. It took me years and I hit self destruct many times in my twenties and early thirties.
I had problems with heavy periods from the start and I had miscarriages after years of trying for a baby, all because of the endo.
Ever since the doctor asked I have wondered if the endo is related to the fact that my body wasn't developed enough when he started. My husband is very supportive and comes to all my appointments so I can't ask doctors, he know about what happened to me and hates seeing the way I am now, in so much pain all the time. I don't want to destroy my family, not the relationship I have built with my brother and certainly not the love I have for my husband.
So I am asking the question that I have been to scared to ask for years, about a subject that is difficult on so many levels. Is my endo because of what happened all those years ago, is endo common in people who had sex at a very young age. I know its a hard thing to ask and a harder thing to answer, I'm not asking you to disclose things you dont want to discuss, I just desperately want to know if there is a link. I am going to be brave and post this and pray no one that knows me will ever read it and know its me.