Struggling

I've got grade 4 endo which has resulted in me having to have IVF in order to conceive. I'm just waiting for my third NHS cycle to begin but right now I'm really struggling to stay positive. I'm going out of my mind with fear, I'm so scared but don't feel like I can tell anyone as I'm obviously meant to be staying positive but it's so hard.

I just feel so helpless. It just seems that everything I do to improve our chances have no impact on the end result, I feel like I'm letting everyone down, especially my husband who would make a great dad.

Sorry

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