So fed up with this. This Endo malarky has evolved, tried and tested me and basically ravaged my body. After all these years of trying to cope, telling myself that this will pass, put the false smile on, you can do it - I really feel I cannot take this any more.
Life being life has been challenging, decisions were made (in haste due to foggy Endo brain?) made worse by trying to cope with 'normal' life experiences due to this? I always wonder if I did not have this, would I still be working in my chosen career? living with my ex in the house we both worked hard to get? My children would be happier/not have mental health issues? Maybe these things would have just happened despite Endo but I would have been able to work on a better outcome without being pulled down by pain, exhaustion or depression/frustration at not being totally all singing and dancing?
Some advice on top of all this moaning please. I came off anti depressants last year, as having been on them forever, I felt that they were not giving me any relief, that and the fact that I felt tired all the time, they were not working. Of course we all know differently, of course it was the Endo. Now months on, another op out of the way, daily issues arising within my family/no let off with the challenges, does anyone think that after hearing this rant, I need to go back on anti depressants? Yes, I know my choice, so the alternative question is - how many of you are on anti depressants due to feeling so rubbish from this?
If I could only get a decent nights sleep every night, I am sure I would be able to cope with the world in a different way, with some energy, insted of dragging myself through every day, unhappy, trying to support my daughter and do 2/3 days of work a week just to earn an extra bit of money to be able to pay my rent....
Wow sorry everyone, life is just so bad at the moment, my happy go lucky approach has disappeared, this I must add, disappeared at least 6 years ago and I cannot seem to get it back.
Hugs to everyone in the same position as me and lets hope they find a cure very very soon x