I AM SITTING HERE ON ANOTHER NITE THAT SLEEP DOESN'T WANT TO SHARE MY WORLD. THINKING OF PAST THANKSGIVINGS AND WHAT THE FUTURE ONES HOLD FOR ME. OTHER THAN MY SONS AND A SISTER THAT LIVES 1000 MILES AWAY, I HAVE NO CLOSE FAMILY. THANK GOD DAILY FOR A FRIEND THAT HE HAS SENT MY WAY TO BE MY ADVOCATE, BY READING, AND TALKING TO ME, LETTING ME EXPRESS ANY THING AND EVERYTHING THAT IS INSIDE ME OVER AND OVER. MANY DAYS CAN GO BY AND PD IS FAR AT THE BACK OF MY MIND A FORM OF DENIAL PROBABLY , THAN A DAY LIKE THIS COMES ALONG WHERE I AM TRIPPING MORE CAN'T KEEP THE TRAIN OF THOUGHTS IN LINE, YEA AND AN ADDED NEW FUN THING STARTED IN THE LAST FEW DAYS IS MY RIGHT FT KEEPS HAVING VERY PAINFUL SPASMS WHERE MY TOES LITERALLY CURL DOWN. TODAY WHILE DRIVING AND JUST A SHORT DISTANCE THIS STARTED AGAIN, I FINALLY HAD TO USE MY LEFT FOOT ON THE GAS PEDAL. IT IS WHEN THINGS LIKE THIS HAPPEN IT MAKES ME THINK GEE WONDER WHAT I WILL BE LIKE NEXT THANKSGIVING, BETTER, OR WORSE. TODAY I PLAYED WITH MY ADOPTDED GRANDDAUGHTER AND HAD SO MUCH FUN, SO GLAD THAT HER MOM NEEDED ME WATCH HER SINCE I DON'T GET AS MUCH AS I WANT SINCE SHE IS IN SCHOOL. THAN OUT OF THE BLUE A NEW FUN SOMETHING. I MEAN SOMTHING THAT MAKES U TAKE STOP AND TAKE AN INVENTORY OF YOUR WORLD LIKE WHERE WILL I BE NEXT THANKSGIVING. I PRAY THAT I WILL PLAYING WITH MY GRANDDAUGHTER AND MOVING AS I AM TODAY I KNOW THAT IS OUT OF MY HANDS . IN MY HEART I KNOW I WILL STAY A STEP AHEAD OF PD I JUST HOPE MY BODY CAN
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