Well I hadn't run since last Saturday as my daughter has been very ill all week and firstly wouldn't let me leave her side and even if she would, lack of sleep meant I had no energy whatsoever.
Today she was on the mend so I realised I couldn't put it off any longer. Even before the run I was having mental battles with myself. Despite having been doing this running for about 8 weeks and enjoying it, having a week off made me realise how easy it would be to slip back into inactivity and make excuses not to do anything. I spent about 20 minutes faffing around with my running gear before forcing myself out of the door.
I was debating whether to run in the park next to my house or on the street. i decided on the street as I figured if I was feeling in this frame of mind, it would be too easy to give up in the park whereas if I ran away from home I'd have to come back!
I decided to go without Laura and the podcasts today as the music just did my head in on the last run (there was a song about being in the pouring rain that sounded like it was trying to be in the style of the Kooks but sung by someone who sounded like Norman Wisdom - I digress). I did actually enjoy the music a lot more and set off ok. Had the RunKeeper app set for 5 minute intervals. When I hit the 8 minute mark, I was already feeling ready to give up. When I got to 15 minutes I thought I was going to die at the fact there was still 10 minutes left.
Talk about battling demons - they were telling me to give up and I so wanted to but kept thinking of how annoyed I would be if I did. I honestly felt like just lying down on the middle of the pavement at points but I kept plugging on and finished the run in the park. Thank goodness for the Kaiser Chiefs whose song came on right at the end and picked me up a bit. The feeling of relief at the end but my goodness, it completely took it out of me today. I think I need to start running with water as was desperately thirsty when I got home. I also had a little dip of confidence in whether I can do this but am going to read everyone's blogs and perk myself up.
So it's done, only one more run of W7 - let's hope it's not such mental torture
Hope everyone is enjoying the lovelier weather