hello everyone, I am so, so sorry…apart from my admin posts for graduation etc I haven’t posted here for absolutely yonks…slap me with a big stick!!!
You know when somethings on your mind you just cannot think of anything else?? Well, college results, GCSE results, higher set placement have been on my mind for ages…thankfully though, I am blessed with not only 3 beautiful children, turns out they’re really clever too, smashing their results and opening doors to their futures…while I stand there watching them with a smile but inside I’m secretly longing for my babies…my heart bursting with all sorts of emotions.
The other big part of my life is what I’ve done over the last 18 years which is basically staying at home to look after them which, at the time, you hope will last forever but, it doesn’t and now I am, after all these years, starting a new career, as some of you might remember, as a driving instructor….phew…what a journey it has been so far!!! Next week is the final part so that I can get my business up and running…I have a practical test on my teaching ability…well, it’s more coaching…with 17 competences to nail it has kept me awake most nights & last night I had a bit of a melt down….didn’t sleep a wink & was exhausted all day today…then, as if it couldn’t get any worse, my pupil for the test day, messaged me to say she thought it best that she didn’t have a driving lesson this week as she’s got a heavy cold…that was the absolute nail in the coffin…I went into full blown melt down…I haven’t run since last Wed, which is ages for me, as various things have got in the way, as they do & when I was free I just didn’t feel like it…not being on here as much has a lot to do with it too as you inspiring bunch often get me out when I’m not really feeling it…but Oldfloss posted on a social media site, her beach run/walk & I thought, right, if I can’t have the beach then I’ll have the next best running comfort and that’s the oldfloss Bush in the park opposite me…I haven’t seen it for ages and I remember in those very early days, Oldfloss telling me to think up names for things or just play games while I was running, I know she posted something about it the other day…well, I wasn’t feeling it at all, but I pulled my big girl pants up & off I went…& sure enough , I felt so much better…I could almost hear Oldfloss cheering me on gently…
So you see, stepping back instead of racing forwards is something we need to do to remind ourselves that we aren’t super human…we all have those times when everything gets too much…but we have our running…some of us on the beach, some on the hills & some on the streets, but wherever it is, when you just need some time out but it seems like an effort, just lace up & take yourself back to your happy place, it’s just the ticket 😉