I am writing the below experience in the hope that it encourages some other runner out there. Hiya!
Here’s some context -
I have graduated the C25K in Feb2019, and did a few 5k at 10.3mins/km (yes, snails have overtaken me at the 1.4km mark while I huffed on to put the next foot forward) but then I jogged past the 5k mark while the snail was still stuck at 1.5km (take that, snail!!!).
The ideal version of me would have done 3 runs a week, but then the regular version of me averaged 2 runs a week (and sometimes even 1).
So I took a medium-to-long hard look, changed my gym to one near my workplace and focussed on increasing my number of weekly runs.
I found my pace reduce to 9.23 min/km at the lowest and to 8min/km at the top-end - still huffing, mind you, but not seeing the Angel of Death do a macarena in front of my eyes after every 10 seconds!.
And then yesterday a guy at work casually commented, "Haaah! 9.5mins is not even running, its walking! I do a 7.5 for 15 mins and do weight trainings!".
The "...take THAT, you fat loser!" was in the sub-titles. So, I opened up a blog to see what pace actually qualifies for running and it said - 12mins per mile. That's 7.5mins per KM for a newbie runner!
Apparently I was worse than a newbie runner after completing 150km of running (or whatever I was doing, but it was damn not “walking” admiring the birds and the bees!)
I was down. One casual comment and the angel of self-doubt started singing “Boulevard of Broken Dreams”
Then guess what - I ran the day before, and am hitting the treadmill today again to complete my 3 runs a week.
So, if you are out there who is self-doubting, just remember - the sacrifices which you have made to go for your runs inspite of all the distractions/laziness/etc were not made by 80% of the people. And more importantly they were not even made by YOU a few days/weeks/months/years back.
Wasn't your goal to be more fit when you started this?
Fitness is not just a number on the stopwatch. Its a way of being. Its how disciplined you have become.
The fact that you are reading this, should be proof that your mind is wiring itself towards a fitter lifestyle. And you are consciously directing your life towards it.
That's something to be DAMN proud of! Who CARES what those numbers are (...tbh I do, but I am working on it. Its not you, its me!)
To end this, here are some quote by some legends -
- “Its not how hard you hit, its how hard you can get hit and still keep moving. That's how winning is done" - Rocky Balboa, world's greatest fictitious heavy weight boxer.
- "Get busy living, or get busy dying" - Andrew Dufresne (Worlds greatest fictitious jail-breaker, optimist, and stupidly understanding human being. The Shawshank Redemption).