I’ve been thinking about how I approach each run in light of my raging self consciousness. After my last couple of posts I’ve had some great inspiration and support from you lovely lot. I can’t let all that go to waste and I’m sick of whining on about it. Plus at the back of my mind seeds of doubt about quitting have been planted, watered and are begin to sprout. I need to do something about it. So - Friday 6.25am I was ready to go and give it some welly.
Coldplay’s Adventure of a Lifetime is always my starting song and it turned out, as I started to jog, that it was stuck on repeat. This happens from time to time (nowt to do with user error….ahem) and Katy Perry has now been booted off my playlist for this very reason. There’s only so much Firework anyone can take. It takes me most of my warm up walk to wrestle my armband into place so it looks like I was stuck with Coldplay for 30 minutes. Worse things happen at sea. I’m consciously trying to be more laid-back and it seems to be working, so far so good.
Mr Spaniels was on his own, he said ‘hello’. I replied with a very nonchalant, take it or leave it ‘morning’ and jogged on. Mrs Spaniels was late and came into the rec. screaming at her poor dogs (or possibly Mr Spaniels) across the cricket pitch… She got a very wide berth - from us all. I jogged off around the football pitch, where they never venture and did some relaxingly things to keep my breathing and pace steady.
With not much choice, I spent the rest of the run listening to the words of the song - normally they wash over me and I don’t really listen. Anyway, I realised it was the absolute perfect song to be stuck on, for me, after the last few runs. It hit the spot on some of Old Floss’s comments about appreciating my surroundings and everything that I am feeling and what I am achieving. Embrace it all and feel it, good or bad. I’m sure some OF magic has been tinkering with my phone….
It sounds a bit cheesy, being captivated by the words of a song, I know. But I don’t care. At that moment, it did the trick. What with all of the great support and advice I’ve got on here, I feel better about things. Little by little I feel that I can do this. I was out again today and it was good, with a new playlist to perk things up!
Thanks for all of your help