So its been a few weeks since i've graduated and I'm still just doing my own thing, just slowly but surely trying to get used to running and get a better time.
I don't seem to be improving time wise significantly but that obviously isn't going to happen over night. However I thought at some point that it would start to get 'easier'..... I mean I do my warm up and right away I feel uncomfortable and ugh. Eventually it goes away and I start to think about other things and then after a mile or so (I'm averaging 15 min/mile so quite slow!) I find that I can't breath everything hurts etc etc. Most of the time I seem to get through it but for the past couple of runs I find myself not being able to do it.
Yesterdays run for example I just simply gave up after 1.5 miles and I walked home. I then started to cry because I'd let myself down and running was meant to help with my depression not make it worse. I could have run the extra 7 mins and done at least a basic 30 min run but my head was telling me couldn't so I just stopped.
Whilst I was walking home I was finding myself telling myself that I was rubbish at this and what was the point etc etc.
I see you all doing so well after your graduation, and I don't seem to be improving at all!!! Its not getting easier, I still can't breath properly and I generally feel like crap. I want to run longer/faster distances but I just cannot seem to get it done.
Any advice for a beginner runner still feeling very sorry for themselves? I'm just not sure what to do next.....