The holidays have been tough for me, as I'm sure they have been for others suffering from COPD. My partner simply refuses to believe there is anything wrong with me, and if I want to back out of a holiday party or dinner she gets angry. She thinks COPD is like a mild headache. I just got back from a dinner party and it was agony. But no one can see it. I can do a lot of things other people do, but what they don't know is that while they're doing these things they feel fine, but when I'm doing these same things I feel terrible. I'm so sick of being sick. I don't know what to do. I've been with this woman for 15 years, and she is all I have. But I feel that I must tell her to move on with her life and to leave me behind. I was a normal person for the first 14 years of our relationship but in the last year this thing hit me and hit me hard. It's especially frustrating because I quit smoking 23 years ago. I never expected this to happen. I know there is no cure and I'm only going to get worse.